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Luxury

Posted in: 2023 posts | Death | Interest: TV | My Worrying Side | Our Water Woes

"The Predator" was okay, I guess... I don't know why it felt like a parody though XD. The thing that appeared at the end was really cool.. kind of want to watch more of that but also don't want to at the same time. Still not a fan of seeing them in the cities (I prefer the wilderness - "Prey" looks good so far).

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Sleep is still very much disrupted due to waking up early just to do laundry. Not expecting it to change any time soon. I hate that it has come to this when I just started being able to properly feel sleepy like a normal person end 2021-early 2022. Sleep is a luxury to me. I seldom get to sleep continuously for 7-9 hours. I probably will die early.

Time: 2023-03-25T18:01:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , Death , Interest: TV , My Worrying Side , Our Water Woes

Have yet to Find The Answer

...because I was listening to Arashi's "Find The Answer" when I compose this post lol

Few more days until the water disruption thing ends. While I've been positive(?) about it before... can't really say it feels the same now. Of course, you don't have to do laundry everyday but when I do manage to wake up early, it's Zombie mode for at the next two days. Haaaaah. Tried going back to sleep after setting the washing machine up.. helped a bit, but I can still feel the effects. There's also that option where I do it at night but I don't really want to do that...

Anyway, new neighbour [to the right] has started doing renovation works at their house. Heard that they need it done as soon as possible because they're renting the place out (so, new neighbours again?). I don't think I'm as affected as my sister and mother but... I do feel like going out nowadays...sooo I think that's proof enough how much I'm affected lol.. It doesn't really feel comfortable having strangers going in and out nearby. Also, it makes me feel paranoid (WHAT IF they are doing recon work on the side???).

Not much progress on reading "The Sirens of Titan". I feel like this one needs to be read slowly for some reason. That's worrying. Oh, well. I'll cross the bridge when I get to it.

I really want to binge-read some manga now...

Time: 2022-10-21T07:47:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , In Zombie Mode , Life: Anecdotes , Manga , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Our Water Woes , Reading

Rainwater

Posted in: 2022 posts | blog images | Life: Anecdotes | My Worrying Side | Spotify

So... listening until the end of that "Your Top Songs 2020" playlist helped...? It's not there anymore. I didn't even listen to it in one go. I just continue from the last track I listened to for a few days.

Now it looks cleaner XD

But it's still annoying to see the trending albums etc on the mobile app. Like, man, you miss the spot real big 'cos I don't listen to what's trending (internationally and locally). So tempted to mark them as "🚫 Don't play this"... but I don't want to spend efforts on that.

That aside... there's another troubling thing happening tomorrow. Water supply disruption for almost two weeks! According to the notice on their website:

(in the pdf)

I'm guessing this will be like that day...? The water might not reach upstairs. I'm not even sure if we can use the washing machine later. Probably have to be frugal with the clothes-wearing too - like maybe wear gonop more often or something - and cooking..? Cook/eat with the least amount utensils/cutlery. Since it's like we get rain every week maybe I should get some of that rainwater for toilet-flushing use... Take a shower in the rain????

Time: 2022-10-10T15:26:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , blog images , Life: Anecdotes , My Worrying Side , Spotify

HaaaH

Posted in: 2022 posts | I Need to be Distracted | My Worrying Side

Things I can do when a computer is not available:

Read
Play the piano
Watch TV
Listen to music
Learn [new] languages
Create art
Clean room/house
Organise... stuff
Play games on phone

What I really did today:

Watched horror movies
Went through my "Watch Later" Youtube playlist
Didn't panic and cry (yet)
Continued "repairing" my blanket (determined to finish it tonight or midnight because I have to stop this thing from becoming a distraction *sigh*)

Time: 2022-06-20T22:36:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , I Need to be Distracted , My Worrying Side

Not Them

Posted in: # Hyouka | 2022 posts | My Worrying Side | Reading

An update to this... someone came to take a look today and said we're good. It's not that.

Glad to hear that.

Of course, I'll still be cautious.

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Couldn't sleep last night so I ended up reading "Walaupun Aku Ada Sayap..." until morning. I really enjoyed the short stories in this one. Might finish it soon.

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Waited for DHL the whole afternoon but they never came. Hours later, got notified via Whatsapp that they already got delivered. Apparently DHL came around 8pm lol

Time: 2022-05-11T23:33:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Hyouka , 2022 posts , My Worrying Side , Reading

worried sigh

Posted in: 2022 posts | Family | I Need to be Distracted | My Worrying Side

Just heard that there's another positive case at my mother's office.

I... don't want to hear anymore "positiveness" today.

Please... don't do stupid things. Don't be over-optimistic.

Time: 2022-02-16T20:39:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , Family , I Need to be Distracted , My Worrying Side

Stay Not-Positive

Posted in: 2022 posts | Family | My Worrying Side | Youtube

Been shredding papers manually today. It's probably going to be one of the things I'm going to be doing a lot this year. Surprisingly a therapeutic activity. So... You'll find me shredding or knitting while I watch TV or go through my Youtube playlist XD

Few years ago, because of time and space constraints, my father did use the "soak in water" method (he got the idea when the boxes of paper got rained on). ...but shredding them the manual way is okay too. Slow, but dry. I do want to "play" around with a shredding machine XD so I really hope they'll get one (knowing my mother *sigh*, pretty sure we'll have boxes of paper again).

There are papers that could be re-used though so I have to categorise them before shredding. Expectedly, now I'm in possession of a large amount of papers and I don't know what to do with them yet. I used some of them for my reading schedules recently... but I'm thinking of printing other, I don't know, things. Maybe some funny, interesting quotes or articles (for my yet-to-exist "Good Vibes Only" [temporary title lol] file)... or game guides (high probability).

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...recently, heard some "positive" things - or rather - cases around people related to my parents. Also, some relatives... were feverish few days ago. Don't know if they had get themselves tested. My uncle said it's just the usual flu but... since we still wear masks (as part of the SOP)... and a few of them are feverish - at the same time - ... I'm susp- haaah I just hope they at least get the self-test kit.

Anyway, hearing all these "positiveness" is making me want to drink more coffee... I've been coping with switching night/evening ~~coffee~~ drinks to cocoa ones (I know they still have caffeine...). Maybe, maybe... I'll try playing games today...

Time: 2022-02-15T16:29:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , Family , My Worrying Side , Youtube

E & E

Posted in: 2022 posts | Interest: TV | My Worrying Side

I don't know how but yesterday ended up being like Movies Day for me lol... Watched "Encanto" and "Eternals" on TV. Enjoyed both movies.

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This morning, read a newspaper article about someone dying (because of Covid) after having people visiting their house for CNY celebrations...

Honestly, that's like a news headline I saw from 2020/2021... Seeing it this year again doesn't look good to me. People are forgetting [again] already.

Time: 2022-02-04T23:37:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , Interest: TV , My Worrying Side

Expiring Cards

Posted in: 2022 posts | Diana Wynne Jones | My Worrying Side | Reading

Another day for more things to worry about...

Recently, I realised that my ATM debit cards will expire this year (surprisingly both are in the same month). Checked online to see if I need to make an appointment... but looks like I don't have to...? At least for Maybank's, I can do it online. Couldn't find similar article for CIMB on their website but I found this site (seems doable too).

Now the only problem is when do I do that? A month before they expire? Two months?

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Finally finished "Castle in the Air". I think I had a better experience in reading the book this year. Maybe because I stopped expecting it to be something like a sequel for "Howl's Moving Castle"? Still, there are some stuff that I'm not really keen on in the story.

Time: 2022-01-19T22:53:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2022 posts , Diana Wynne Jones , My Worrying Side , Reading

Status Refreshed

Posted in: 2021 posts | blog images | My Worrying Side | Tweets

Vaccination Status in MySejahtera

It's finally updated!

Exactly 14 days later. The day after those 14 days. Phew.

Your vaccination status will be shown in white (partially vaccinated) if you have only received one dose of your vaccine or if it is less than 14 days since you received your second dose. pic.twitter.com/tw8eD1ZeuF
— KKMalaysia🇲🇾 (@KKMPutrajaya) September 6, 2021

Well, they did say it will be that way on Twitter. Seeing some of the replies to the tweet: there are those who are still not updated...? Fortunately, mine turned out okay.

So why this is important?

This means I can go out now (while observing the SOP).

Two main places I want to go: Book stores and Daiso :P

*sigh*

I want to go out but I'm still feeling scared though.

Time: 2021-10-15T09:42:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , blog images , My Worrying Side , Tweets

The Sky From My Room

Posted in: 2021 posts | blog images | Forty Winks and More | My Worrying Side | The Weather Looks...

Blue-greyish sky.

Nice weather today. Almost couldn't believe that it suddenly rained heavily at 2.30am-ish, with strong wind and thunderstorm.

I know it well, because I wasn't asleep.

HAAAH........

I wish I can blame it on the rain for making it hard to fall asleep. Alas, I can't - I have but myself to blame.

Ended up picking TSGS #2 at 5am++ to read before falling asleep around 10 minutes to 6am. Was in the mood for horror stories. Fortunately, no weird dreams or nightmare. Woke up 1.5 hours later.

I read somewhere that if you can't fall asleep after 15 minutes, you should get up and go somewhere else. I was worried if I do that, I will stay awake and see the sun rise (or not, because it was raining... the sky might be cloudy).

I get so worried when I can't go to sleep. That's probably part of the problem that makes it harder to happen. I know that if the time go past 4am, I should be lucky enough if I can get an hour of sleep in the morning. And, even though in zombie mode, I can actually function decently during the day. I just wanna stop being that monster.

Time: 2021-10-12T17:01:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , blog images , Forty Winks and More , My Worrying Side , The Weather Looks...

Sunday's Fears

Posted in: 2021 posts | My Paranoid Side | My Worrying Side | Pick-A-New-Book Jar | Reading

...Back into the cycle of fear!

Being vaccinated helps lessen the fear, but honestly... I'm still scared.

Good news is I'm probably going to read more to be distracted.

I was contemplating not picking a new book today but I've decided to do it anyway. Just out of spite... or fear, I don't know.

...I got "The Lathe of Heaven".
Ooh. So this is going to be the first book I read from Ursula K. Le Guin?

(and it's less than 200 pages... *lucky!*)

........................ *headache intensifies*

Time: 2021-10-10T14:57:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Pick-A-New-Book Jar , Reading

Shady FP Rider is Back

Posted in: 2021 posts | blog images | My Paranoid Side | My Worrying Side | Online Shopping

I think that shady FP rider is around our area again or he found more friends to do this shady sh*t. The food arrived, rider was paid in cash, and *poof!*, the particular order got cancelled in Foodpanda system.

This is actually kind of annoying when you are aiming to do those Foodpanda challenges (you can accumulate points which can be used to get rewards in the form of vouchers).

Maybe this problem(?) could be avoided by paying online (so no cash involved) but my sister has lost trust in FP (she was surprisingly extra mad about it today). So no more Foodpanda deliveries in the near future?

Haaaah I remember feeling angry about this months ago. Since then, I never go out to receive the food and drinks. My other family members are the ones who go. For a while, there were no weird cancellations. Until now. It started again early October. Even though I wasn't there to receive it.

Time: 2021-10-06T15:11:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , blog images , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Online Shopping

Sunlight in the Morning

Posted in: 2021 posts | Anime | Forty Winks and More | My Worrying Side | Rainy Day Musings

Started watching "Cells at Work! Code Black"... It's just the first episode but I had tears in my eyes. It's a different body but it got me wonder if mine went [is going] through the same thing with those stress and lack of sleep affecting the body *sigh*. I just saw the conclusion to S2 of "Cells at Work!!" yesterday (this was surprisingly short!), it's like going from the adorableness of LAB to reality...? lol

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I really like the idea of waking up to sunlight in the morning.

I think I experienced this once when I forgot to close the curtains in the past. But now that I sleep facing the window and curtains, I'm kind of scared letting the curtains open. What if a face appears? Of course, the supernatural kinds are scary too but what I have in mind is human faces. What if there's a thief or an intruder looking in through the windows in the neighbourhood?

Time: 2021-10-04T22:06:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Anime , Forty Winks and More , My Worrying Side , Rainy Day Musings

Last Minute Updates

Heard some disturbing news in the afternoon. Played the piano to distract myself from those thoughts.

*BIG SIGH*

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Finished another book from the Kotenbu series. This is my favourite arc in the anime. The light novel became a favourite too. But... Mayaka is still annoying (SIGH) and I'm seeing a glimpse of the "rude" Chitanda (from the first book). Not too much but it's still weird.

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On Palace: It has reached the part where Fourth Prince erm... changed.. so he's a bit more pleasant in recent episodes. Eighth Prince is still not so likeable to me.

Time: 2021-08-26T23:49:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Hyouka , 2021 posts , I Need to be Distracted , Interest: TV , My Worrying Side , Reading , TV

Don't Call Me

Posted in: 2021 posts | My Paranoid Side | My Worrying Side

At this moment, I'm sure someone somewhere is selling our sensitive data for money and now the buyer is starting to make use of the data.

Somewhat pretty sure they had reached the part with my mobile phone number on it.

Just earlier today, I saw an unknown number (not Malaysia's country code/it was +62---) messaging me on Whatsapp about some job opportunity. It was suspicious AF so I blocked and deleted it.

An hour later, I received a call that is not in my contact list. Didn't pick it up. After it stopped, I turned on the airplane mode on my phone.

I'm not expecting any mails or parcels. If this is a call from sellers on Shopee or Carousell... They should've used the messaging/chat feature!

Ahhh.. I really don't like getting calls from people I don't know. I don't want to hear them talking. I don't want them to hear my voice (and probably recording the call without permission).

Am I paranoid? I guess I am.

Please don't call me, stranger. Just message me. Like... if you only have my phone number, I'm fine with text messages too. Just, don't call me as if we know each other personally.

Interestingly, I searched for "I don't like receiving calls" later and found articles and blog posts on millennials hating phone calls. Good. So it's not me alone who have problems with this XD. Although I must confess, my reluctance to deal with phone calls intensified after quitting my job at the end of year 2018.

Time: 2021-05-14T18:14:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side

Shady FP Rider

Okay. It happened again today. I don't know if it's the same Foodpanda rider or not. But, it happened again and I don't really know how to interpret... the thing.

I ordered food using Foodpanda and I opted for COD. Then the rider arrived with the food. Then he said there was something wrong with his phone... and then next he said it's my phone that's problematic (Okay...?). So he asked me to turn off my phone for 15 minutes. The first time it happened, I just did it. Because I didn't think it would be a problem. Then later I kept thinking but if my phone is off, won't that mean I'm not reachable? True enough, the order was cancelled in Foodpanda system after I switched my phone on again.

Since the food did reached me I guess it's not really a problem? But why do I feel uneasy? Like I think I could get blamed for not being unavailable although it's the rider's instigating it. I think he's up to no good. I'm not familiar with how the payment works for COD between Foodpanda and the restaurants but I have a bad feeling that the rider is scamming Foodpanda itself. I don't know. Could be that. Or it's time for him to change his phone because it f*cked up twice already. I'm leaning towards the scamming theory.

Cunning and shady riders like this makes me feel wary about using Foodpanda again. Sigh. Maybe I should use less COD payments in the future to avoid this thing.

Time: 2021-04-19T18:13:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Life: Anecdotes , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Need to Get This Out of My Chest , Online Shopping

Saturday Wonders

Posted in: 2021 posts | My Worrying Side

It's Saturday... but it feels like Monday for me. Which is weird. That's never happened to me before.

Been having problems sleeping these past few days because of neck pain *sigh* so I tried not using pillow last ni- erm.. early morning and it worked. I guess sometimes, that can be the solution. Neck pain is no fun. Can't read too long, can't knit comfortably... it doesn't feel good to do anything. I also get headaches.

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Opened Google News today and saw this first:

#NSTnation 40 healthcare workers have been infected with #Covid19 upon completion of their coronavirus #vaccine shots.https://t.co/gyGbLHaier
— New Straits Times (@NST_Online) April 17, 2021

Made me wonder if those vaccinated ones that contracted Covid-19 can infect other [unvaccinated] people. Logically, they can... right? Or not...? But that's why you shouldn't take the SOP for granted even if you are already vaccinated.

Time: 2021-04-17T19:03:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , My Worrying Side

Sleepy Sunday

"Every problem has a solution. But there's no guarantee that the solution will be found immediately. The same holds true in our lives. We encounter several problems to which the solutions are not immediately apparent in life. There is value to be had in worrying about those problems when you get to them. But never feel rushed. Often, in order to find the answer, you need time to grow first. That's why we apply ourselves, and learn as we go." - Yukawa Manabu, A Midsummer's Equation (Higashino Keigo)

Finished the book this morning. ~~What is sleep anyway?~~ I like this quote so I'm sharing it here. I think the book was okay. It's just like when I watched the movie... if I remember correctly. It's a different story but man, I'm really amazed by Tsutsumi Shinichi's acting in the "Suspect X" movie (haven't read the book though!). It haunts me. I still don't have the courage to watch the Chinese version (directed by Alec Su btw) because I don't want to compare. What I want to say is, I don't remember much from the "Midsummer's" movie which I think meant it's quite... forgettable? I guess there wasn't anyone that gave the same impact with Tsutsumi's performance.

I don't usually have strong reactions towards other adaptations. So far, I can recall two that I find displeasing (displeasing pfft) - The Korean version of HanaDan (BIG NO from me; I actually watched it until the end years ago) and Jane Eyre 2011 movie (can't finish it; the impression of the 2006 version is too strong for me). ~~Shut up stans, this is my blog!~~ Yeah not going to elaborate on that - let's just say that I'm not a fan of their acting.

And... oh... erm.. I can talk about what I'm reading after "Midsummer's" but I'll wait until I'm one or two chapters in.. *whispers* I'm afraid that it will jinx my reading progress. I'm so afraid of falling back into a reading slump. I'm capable of ignoring the books I'm reading for months (& years!).

Time: 2021-02-14T17:59:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Books , Happy Sunday , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Reading

August 3rd at random

I'm sick again. For the second time of the year. Arggh! Fortunately, I'm feeling better today.. my 4th day I think? Last Saturday, I felt a bit hard to breathe.. it was like gasping for air after going for a run. I never had that before but yes, my nose was runny and stuffy since Friday, so I think it's not that weird. I probably slept in a bad posture the night before. Hmm. Anyway.. that was enough to remind me again of the bad cold/flu thing I had last year and scared me enough not to get out of the house again. I did go out several times since the time we were allowed to but I really don't want to go out too much. It's.. dangerous out there.

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I should be teaching piano this month but I cancelled it because I don't think it's the wise thing to do after seeing what's happening recently.

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I didn't mention it here and it was really done in a spur of the moment.. but... I tried doing Watercolour Month and it was interesting! It forced me (in a good way) to paint something everyday in July. Of course, my knowledge of using paint only consists of the poster colours I did in school...

BTW aren't Posca Pens basically Poster Colour Pens? ポスターカラー Posuta Kara - > PosuKa -> Posca?.. Wouldn't it be cheaper to just buy poster colour paint set (of course.. I'm aware that there are some that are expensive)?

Okay back to the topic... I didn't really do anything big or grand.. most of them are small!.. it's just something like an art diary thing. And I experimented a lot because I just jumped in blind and tried something I'm not that familiar with. It was fun nonetheless!

Time: 2020-08-03T22:01:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2020 posts , Art Stuff , at random , Life , My Paranoid Side , My Worrying Side , Piano

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