I CAN'T WORK WHEN I'M PRESSURIZED & I'M A PERSON WHO IS TOTALLY AFFECTED BY MOODS -from "Alec 苏有朋 VS Alex 苏友朋", posted on 12/Feb/2005

*I miss this place so much…* Wow, my last “at random” post was in May 2010!

Oh.

I’m kind of glad listing my resolutions like how they did in “Arashi no Shukudai-kun”… they become more reachable & doable. I ACTUALLY make the efforts to identify any problems I have and ACTUALLY thinking of how to solve them. Better yet, I ACTUALLY do most of the solutions I’ve thought of. Though, honestly, I’m not satisfied yet…but this is a good start, isn’t it?

Recent life is “frequently” Arashified. Like having blue as my new favourite colour. Like having that interest in learning japanese return once again. Okay, this one is quite serious. I’ve lost complete interest in studying French language. For this semester (the 4th semester), I’m taking the final class (3rd level) of French… & I am not as excited as before. It’s more like “Let’s get this done quickly so that I can go home” every time I go to language class. No enthusiasm at all. But… partly might be because I have to attend the class at night… hmm. Maybe not that. Anyway..continue – Like stop watching TV. Ah~ This Arashi effect surprised me. I used to like to watch TV (even listed it as one of my hobbies), but now… I don’t bother much ‘cos… I have plenty of Arashi TV shows and Ohno doramas to watch. I don’t know if it’s for the better or worse, but that’s just how it is now. (Sabishii sou da ne… What a lonely life I have.. haha).

New semester ka? I didn’t blog much about the previous semester. Honestly, it was horrible. Man… I say that for every semester but the 3rd one was really, truly horrible…especially the ending (results). And here comes another Arashi effect. Like having Ohno-san’s kind of patience and my-pace-iness. This is obvious, I think. I’ve always struggle with these thoughts :

I try to assure myself that everyone is unique thus they have their own unique ways of teaching themselves. Instead, most of the time, I try to comfort myself that I am me, their unique ways don’t work for me & I don’t have to worry if I learn from a different route. And it’s not easy. It’s still hard now because I keep seeing how my methods don’t give out results as good as those “gifted-in-memorising” students. (Oct 15th, 2010 post)

Ohno Satoshi is a living proof of my method [assumed]. So I shouldn’t give up on it. *starts to stare into space* ---

Erm. Next one. Like having blind confidence. This one is quite insane. Watching Arashi in “VS Arashi” (where they compete with guests in several sport-ish games. Hah. Sorry to bother you with this fangirl fact) made me realise that ‘blind confidence’ is quite useful (though I think most of them are feints really). I called this insane because I can’t really explain why and how it helps to have blind confidence. Anyway…

Have to let this out here. I have a coursemate (a close friend) that I think is still angry with me because of my irresponsibility (arguable) in the previous semester. We are still friends, still talk and exchange a few jokes with each other… but there exists an unspoken distance between us. I am quite relieved actually (which is bad, I guess?)  because she often got on my nerves last semester (didn’t happen much in my first year). I did reflect on that mistake (which wasn’t entirely my fault) but at the same time I welcome this “distance”. Why do I sound so evil in this paragraph…? Oh, well. Whatever. *attempts an evil smile but eventually fails*

I’m glad I purchased this last month. It’s now “…temporarily not for sale” on YesAsia. Sigh. The power of first press edition/limited edition~

I love books. But I’m not necessarily a bookworm. I really, really love to keep books. I still have many un-read books in my bookshelf.  

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Now I have 3 French dictionaries. Yes. I’m lexicon crazy. I’m not even sure if I’m going to use them much in the future. But I’m 75% sure I’ll use them. *self-denial*

The middle (dark blue one) is my first French dictionary bought at City Mall’s Popular Bookstore. I like the size… Not too big & not too small. Pronunciation guide is included unlike the light blue one’s (Oxford Learner’s). That one was bought at Signature (or Eaton’s? ‘cos the stationary section is called that).

What I like about the Oxford Learner’s dictionary : Le (masculine) or La (feminine) is added straight away in front of every words. I just realised the importance of this in French dictionaries during class where the lecturer kept asking us if this or that thing is masculine or feminine. *sigh* It seems hard to guess if the thing is ‘male’ or ‘female’. I have to associate the things with masculine/feminine characteristics to help me remember which one to use. The other dictionary is a visual dictionary from Suria Sabah’s Times Bookstore. That’s self-explanatory, I guess. ;P

These are from the visual dictionary. Apparently some countries use le, some use la… The other pic… I was reminded of Jacques Clouseau (Pink Panther)’s “hamburger” blunders. Haha...

“What Your Teacher Didn’t Tell You (Vol. 1)”… That was a randomly-picked book. Like Eragon (I haven’t even read Eragon yet!). How can you resist a book with that title? It’s thought-provoking! What my teacher didn’t tell me? What should I know that ‘they’ don’t want ‘us’ to know? (The author, Farish A. Noor, is described as “Malaysia’s hippest intellectual” at the back cover.)

Actually, it looks like a history-ish book to me… but oh well. I’ll risk that. It might turn out good.

The other colourful-covered book is Diana Wynne Jones’ latest book, “Enchanted Glass”! I can’t find that book in Sabah, you know… I asked my mum to buy it for me (as gift! Haha..) when she went to KL for meetings (again) few days ago. It’s still wrapped in plastic… don’t feel like opening it yet. The first thing I thought of as I read the synopsis at the back is “House of Many Ways” (“Howl’s Moving Castle” 2nd sequel). Hmmm. Anyway… I’m saving this for a bad day. Yeah. You read it right. Bad day. A good book is the perfect pick-me-up on bad days.