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I Have Trust Issues

Posted in: 2021 posts | My Paranoid Side | On This Day

Time for revisit some old posts that were posted on this same day and month in the past.


Okay... I only got one. Which is last year's.

I'm sick again. For the second time of the year.

Oh gosh. I totally forgot about that. 

Anyway.. that was enough to remind me again of the bad cold/flu thing I had last year and scared me enough not to get out of the house again.

Just had a random thought weeks ago. Around the time I posted about this early July. I seem to get really sick once every 2-3 years. The strep throat thing was probably 2016...? (I believe it was before I started working)... and then the one month thing in 2019. 

Sounds like... it's time for that kind of sickness again this year? Or next year?   

In April, I said that I can get out of the house if I want. Let me update you on that. Yes, I can.. but only if I'm going to a place with no one else. So, I guess I'm never going out then! 

Total recluse mode ✔. 

I have serious trust issues since last year. And my gut feeling is half-telling me I'll die if I go out there. I might die because of the virus. Or I might die because of stupid people acting stupid. (At this point you might say I'm being stupid like them. I'm fine with you thinking that. I'm not as optimistic as you)

So,  get vaccinated, you say? I would like to. Only if the place has no crowds. Honestly, it feels very much like "I don't want to breathe the same air with all hundreds of you"-kind of paranoid so, like I said, I have trust issues. I don't feel safe out there.


...haaah... *tries to calm self*


Obviously, I need to get out and "touch grass".  

Time: 2021-08-03T16:57:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , My Paranoid Side , On This Day


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