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I'm a procrastinator. I've been one since like forever. It's a habit that's very hard to break. I've posted about wanting to beat procrastination several times in this blog but I honestly never did succeed in doing so. Honestly, now, I just want this under control. I try going by the phrase, "If I can do it now, I'll do it NOW," every time there's a chance for it to manifest. But it doesn't always work.

I did found something that works for me.. which is to do things little by little. Baby steps... But even that.. sometimes I procrastinate doing that too. Even though it's only a small step. Why am I like this?


Here's some anecdote from my former workplace. I procrastinated  at times too but since it was an intense work environment, I pulled through by doing the baby steps thing. And because I'm such a lazy person, I always try to find the most efficient way to finish my tasks which worked really great with doing things little by little. That made an interesting side of me came out. I began to reprimand anyone who procrastinate at work. My task depended highly on the co-operation between other workers in a different department so when they fall, I might fall too. This was a stab or be stabbed [in the back] situation. They had, in the past, shifted the blame to me or my senpai even though they were already made aware of it several times. ANYWAY. I was always angry about it. Yes, I know, it's like pot calling a kettle black. But I, probably the laziest person I know (self-proclaimed), already finished my part which always made me wonder why they were acting lazier than me who is supposed to be the laziest.

So, I've been there. I can do it. Was that the workings of my perfectionist side? Is that why I procrastinate? "If no one's gonna do it properly, I don't have to do it too,"... and then I turn to a procrastinator and act like one to a T. Again I ask myself, why am I like this?


Oh god I need to lie down... I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SLEEP.