Others might call it obsession but I don't think it reached that level...? (Is this self-denial?) That was just me acting as usual when I found a new toy I really, really love to play with. I think it was also a distraction from life problems. It was fiction books when I was having a hard time studying (if you can call that studying) for SPM exam in Form 5. I wanted to escape so badly I was able to focus on reading classic books (which might be a bit hard for me at that time). Then in uni, my greatest distraction was Arashi. Who got me into Japanese stuff including learning the language itself. It's a win-win situation. I gained something from it.

The point of this post is me admiring my old fangirling posts for their colourful vocabulary. Which is a stark contrast to my posts nowadays. I struggle to recall words more now (is it because of lack of sleep?). I've been doing more [book] reading because I know that can help me remedy that problem. I'm afraid that I'll lose my mind so I guess reading helps me escape and stay sane.. or something like that.