Few weeks into 2019, I'm hit with some past memories... - I guess you can say I'm reminiscing - since I... sigh... have time. I re-read my old blog posts and that already made me miss my own writing. Haha.. I say this every time I re-read posts but the feeling is still true to this day: It's like the past me is a different person. I can almost say I don't know her. 

Also recently, I... *keeps rechecking words and phrases stuff that I should dedicate a post to it*... erm.. reconnected with my Arashi fan side... in a subdued way (since I can never get over my loss of 2 external HD worth of Arashi stuff *that still hurts to type*). Reading depressing news these past few days made me want to think "Do whatever that makes you happy". I still think that is an irresponsible phrase so I will interpret it with caution. 

P/s: This gloominess is probably (partially) caused by hormones *bitter smile*... One good thing when it's near that time of the month is I get sensitive ears : I get to enjoy songs more than usual which can be a curse (because omg the amount of time in a day I put Jinguji Ren's 悪魔のKissは炎より激しく on repeat last year lol / *off topic* & seriously when will I get Perfect/Ultimate combo for Pro in Shining Live like this youtuber??)