I hardly know what to say on this last day of year 2008.

It might be better if I list down my resolutions for 2009... but that never seldom works for me. Whatever I've planned beforehand always get done like.. almost 50% only... shamefully, unplanned things are (most of the time) given full attention, hence they always get done before I even realize it.

Anyway. A thought came to me a few days ago. I always have something to say in my blog but lately I seem to avoid blogging anything... What happened? I think it has something to do with my previous, previous post. But for this last day (of 2008), I'm determined to face this blog again.

Well... I'm going to list down things that I must give my appreciation to for this year.

First of all, "Thank you, God."

You've taken care of my health throughout this year. I didn't catch any colds in the end of year (which I always do in the past). I know I'm strong-headed sometimes and that you had always tried to tell me things (I should know) which I don't always listen to. An incident (which I won't elaborate) that happened in Nov/Dec had dragged me back to my senses. I realised I need to do a major change to my way of thinking and seeing things. I don't know how yet but hopefully you'll continue to remind me to change myself.

"Thank you, mum and dad."

It's very suprising how much a parent can be patient and forgiving towards a stubborn and idealistic daughter like me. I can't ask for more. They are always there - my mum and my dad. They may not be perfect but I'm not a perfect daughter too, you know... When I screwed up last year, they said "It's okay. You've done your best." It pained me a bit because I knew I haven't done my best. Till now, I'm still uncertain if I ever going to do my best again. Their encouragement and support always remind me of the phrase, "Never give up. Let failure be your teacher." With such treatment, I'm assured that if I ever screw up again in the future, they will not turn me away. Here I'll say the words that's hard to be spoken face to face: I love you both.

"Thank you to my little sister and little brother."

In some weird, twisted way, both of you had become a good listener to my everyday ramblings. Sure, there were times where I was really angry with both of you... But we are family. Family does that. They annoy and please you at the same time.

"Thank you, Mel-chan and Ren-chan."

These were the only two close friends I've kept in touch with throughout the year.(I know I'm a terrible friend but that's not the point of discussion right now) Mel-chan and I are childhood friends. Ren-chan was my form 6 classmate. I'd told them my thoughts about my future recently - something like (although not exact words) 'What will they think of me if I do etc... Will they think less of me?'...
Both were supportive.
Ren-chan said she'll support me no matter what.
My conversation with Mel-chan was more like me opening up to her (though she might think otherwise). I told her what was in my mind recently. She thinks my other choices are interesting but at the same time wants me to keep in mind about the prospects. She also let me know that there's way to realize my original ambition if I choose to stick to it.

"Thank you, Miss Chong."

I'm really grateful that she would accept an adult piano student like me. I'm not sure how I compare to her other younger students but hopefully not that bad.

...and last but not least, thank you to those I didn't mention specifically in this post, which had became a part of my life in 2008.

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