Nothing much to talk about today but…
My father already made a call and received another positive response but this time he made a note of the name of the person’s he’s talking to. My mum suspected that last night (the one that said only chinese trainees can have the holidays) was someone who didn’t know much (a guard, perhaps?). What he said was upsetting… but I think this is an isolated case. It doesn’t (hopefully) fully reflect the situation in every camp all over the country.
Leaving that aside… Today, I had the chance to talk to my sister on the phone (she usually talked to my parents) and she was crying. “Saya mau balik…” (I want to return [home] ) she kept saying. I didn’t know what to response to that and just asked if something (big) had happened. She was talking while crying so I couldn’t really get what she said. My mum later said I should’ve say “Just cry. You’ll feel better.” But, you know… Our relationship (sis & I) isn’t like that. Saying mushy stuff isn’t our style.
The whole thing reminded me of myself back then during university orientation. I was thinking “I must had sounded like this on the phone” …& dad just listened to me. I was feeling mostly uncertain and insecure. Dad said a short prayer on the phone [aww..dad. You’re always like this =) ]. I’ve always doubt them (actually I do this to everyone, this is a side of me you might never notice), but there are times that I just have to believe and in the end they make it done almost perfectly. I don’t think they are indulging parents. We don’t always get what we want. They will question us and make considerations before getting us something we want or allow us to do something. Of course. Their judgments aren’t always right either (I think so). But before I refute their statements, I try to consider them from their point of view. I always end up fighting with my mum because of that.. neither of us want to agree to disagree. Haha. I don’t know why making my point or voicing my opinions means so much to me.
Anyway. The situation now gives me a different angle to view things. The old me (My prime rebellious period: 10-14 years old) would have envy thoughts… but now I just see how attentive and caring my parents are towards my sister. It was really touching & I always feel like crying whenever they talk to my sister on the phone (or after that).
It also shows that I really had become more over-emotional after my cousin’s wedding.
Oh, no! Do I have to cry at my wedding like this too?
