Doumo arigatou, ne... Mel-chan.  ･:*:･:(ﾉ'∀`*):･:*:･
And yes, yes, yes - I'll fill in any forms I could get my hands on!




*attempts a nobuta-smile*


I'm feeling better... Still feels the urge to cry but generally speaking, I think I'm okay.

I tried several things to make my anger go away (I believe the sadness will fade away eventually... anger, on the other hand, isn't something that I can handle greatly)...

Wanna know?

I printed out a short note for the murderer (and put it out the gate of the house)... I want the murderer to feel guilty and know that we (my sister and me) ARE angry. The note looks have something like
YOU’LL NEVER GET A GOOD LIFE AFTER THIS.
and
I HOPE YOU’LL DIE THE SAME WAY.

But, in the end, I removed it because it could jeopardize my family... *sigh*

I'm also thinking of cutting my hair... (do you ever wonder why people want to cut their hair when they are under stress? I think it's because that's one simple thing that can show us a "change"... At least there's one thing you are in control of...)

I also torture my piano and my ears. I found this "truth" arrangement that I'm able to play on the piano. I do play with flaws here and there... but mostly all in fortissimo or just forte. It was surprisingly refreshing and stress-relieving... The "downs" of it was I abandoned the pieces (they were too cheery) I'm supposed to practice for class.


But one thing I really need to apologise for is "abandoning" my friends.

There's supposed to be a form 6 reunion last Sunday. I didn't go because my family returned to kampong to visit my granny. But with the state of mind I was in at that time, I might not go anyway...

I didn't reply much to the smses I received these few days. I hope that everyone isn't going to be very mad with me...









Life goes on.

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