Self-talk #3

"What is it?"
"Huh" My brother answered.
"What did the doctor say?"
"It's *mumbles something*."
"What?"
"Campak." [Measles]

What the heck?
When he said campak, my reaction was neutral. Initially, seeing the rashes all over his body, I thought he was allergic to something. And la~ la~ la~, he actually got measles! Can you still get that nowadays???... He was already vaccinated when he was a baby. Nah. Wait. I'm not even sure about that. I only know I did get vaccinated and ... that included my younger sister. I didn't see his records anywhere.

Then he asked me if it's contagious... "Of course!" thoughts immediately came to mind. Though, at that moment I'm not really sure because I once mistaken measles for chicken pox. My dad told him it wasn't contagious. Well. He said the same thing when chicken pox invaded our house (All thanks to his shingles). I repeatedly said "I'm going to get chicken pox because it's contagious!" at that time, and my dad, my religious/pious dad.. said to believe in God, and have faith in him ----- Try telling that to those who's suffering. (I forgot from which TV show was that)

It's not that I don't believe in God. I do.
But you won't let your car or house unlocked when you are not inside, right?

I know all along (it's obvious!) that my youngest brother is the apple of my parent's eye. I used to keep telling them that but they would always deny it. Now, I just shrugged whenever I see it happen because I've come to accept that. I'm not self-pitying. I'm just saying that these are the things I see and feel about my parents. I think too much? I shouldn't have think of this in the first place if there's nothing to trigger this thought!

Back to the topic. I'm kind of disappointed that my dad told him measles isn't contagious. A few hours ago he went angry when I spoke about measles. He treated the topic as a taboo in the house and warned us not to talk bad (what the heck?) about other people. I was just about to say that it's contagious, [in fact, it's highly infectious as I checked in a medical dictionary].. and my dad said to mind your own business. Or something like that. Let me rephrase it in malay... "Jangan peduli orang lain [punya hal]..." (Ignore other people's [matter])...

Yeah, right. Still sound the same to me.


AHRGGHGH!

AHRGGHGH!



After written it all down here, I'm feeling much better.

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