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Originally posted on Friday, March 02, 2007 in my old blog
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Ah...finally have time to blog.

I think most school have done this. Yesterday, it's "Rat Dissection" (Circulatory) for BIO practical... For 14 of us-- we had 11 white mice dissected. yeah, we didn't use rats. We obtained the mice from the Jabatan Haiwan (I think that's what teacher said).. it's free (& SMALL!).. so I don't think complaining will be right cos we got it without much efforts.. (Actually.. I have one rat at home, caught from outside. When I hear mice would be supplied, it's already too late. & now I don't know what to do with the rat [my rat is bigger than those white mice..].. )

I've done frog dissection before, so I know (from experience) that my hands will shiver when cutting open the skin.. But I'm glad it happened only in the beginning. After that it just came out naturally (not the skin).. I was able to do it calmly & meticulously.. I imagined that I was a surgeon operating on my patient. I pinned its skin neatly (even got praised by teacher because I've done a good dissection... hahaha).. Compared to the frog, the mouse's skin was (in my opinion) more easy to cut & separate it from the inside..


Today I presented about Ammonia during CHEM classes.. wah...yokatta desu.. finally I DID IT! I've made it perfectly again this time!

My CHEM teacher made it clear today on why she wants each of us to make presentation on what we are learning. I totally agree with her: It's to prepare us for university life, cos there'll be plenty of "presentations" there.

For Maths... I found the topic differentiation interesting. It's really fun to do all those calculations. I feared this topic before in f4 & f5. What a waste. I belittled my own skills & talents just because I was afraid. That's what you get when you always think negatively. Hmmm.. Just believe in yourself ma, dui bu dui?


A month ago, I wondered what other students (f6 science & art streams in my school) think of me. Not that I care about what people say of me but I was just curious. From my own assumptions, I think they see me as a conceited, somewhat anti-social person. It bothered me a bit. Talking warmingly & making friends with new people are not easy for me. Only those who care to go pass the wall I built will see the better side of me.

But then, I was struck by a thought: So what? I can't satisfy everyone's taste. If they can't accept me (ie. we have opposite beliefs/characteristics/principles) then let it be. Maybe we are not meant to be friends anyway (I might not like her/him too).

I think what's important is to just express myself honestly without pretending as someone I'm not. I'm willing to help anyone who needs my help as long as I am able to do it.

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