Added these to a list I made recently already so it's not really a surprise. Here's more pre-loved books purchased via Carousell! *sigh*

Michael Crichton's "The Andromeda Strain" & "Travels".

Today's church was in Asia City! I even took a photo of chairs~! As usual, I was sleepy as well (please..don't say a thing about that). I like it! I'm not into business of rating churches - I'm just trying to describe my feelings at that moment..but yeah.. somewhat it reminded me of the youth conferences my church hold [sometimes] in KDCA and a bit of my old, first church in Likas. The energy, the music! In the beginning, there was the usual announcement of silencing your phones and stuff but it sounded like the ones made when you are on the plane - I'm super amused by that.. Oh and one of their tambourine players was a male, so cool! That was rare sight for me but maybe that's only me... I don't get to experience going to other churches that often...

I just want to say I love using the Snapseed app.

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Do I sound happy?


I don't think so because...





...I noticed that I've been having more morbid moments this month. Seriously, it's the beginning of the year...what's happening in my head? Maybe I should stop meeting people? Maybe I should stop talking to people? Twice I met a doctor, they basically asked, "Aren't you afraid that you'll get sick?"... Inside, I would answer, "Please just let me die in peace." And now when people ask me some positive future stuff, inside I would answer, "What's the point, I'm just going to die anyway." Today, I finally acknowledge that these frequent moments are getting disturbing... *long sigh* I just need to get this out.




So... this was kind of a weird post... but you know, this is just like what's happening in my mind. It jumps from here to there, sometimes I would feel good and then down next.. sometimes... I wonder if I'm even alive? Am I even human?