There is something that has been bothering me since Wednesday.

But before that, I'll talk about Monday first.

Once again, on that day, あくま held another motivation erm.. event which included meeting the parents (YES.. & it started since previous semester!) for this semester. I was very guai before, I attended two of them. The second time was a disaster... to me & my emotions. I promised myself that I WILL NOT attend for this semester, no matter what they say because the last person I want to meet to discuss my academic problems would be the head program himself! Call me petty if you want to... I'm still very much hurt by his "act of incompetence" last semester.     

Anyway, so I refused to go. I blocked calls from the person-in-charge. They sent me an invitation letter (handed to me by a friend). During a class, the lecturer in charge asked for me (& two others) to inform about this event. She asked me straight out if I'm going to attend then I answered "No" & it ended there... just like that. I actually had my own list of reasons why I refuse to go (which included "You are not the right person I need to solve my problems -- I need professionals' help -- NOT you."), but I'm satisfied with that ending. 

Moving on... through eavesdropping (lol) & asking some of my friends who attended, it seemed like they had a greater time this time around - which is well, good, of course. Those lucky people didn't attend the somber version, so yeah..  lucky them. But I don't envy them... & I don't feel left out.. my decision of not going is beneficial for my mental health. In case you're wondering, I already met my mentor to discuss about my academic problems & plans in week one (day 2 to be precise, I couldn't find her on day 1) - I'm way ahead them thank you very much. 

Okay.. back to the topic. During the event, they did the Myers-Briggs personality test - I was shocked!!! I've been obsessing over my personality type since last semester.. which explains so many things about my problems *it's a long story//sigh*...  Actually I began to suspect if any of the lecturers have discovered my blog.. or my very public twitter account (conspiracy theorist in action)... haha.. but I ended up thinking that it's just a coincidence; maybe the lecturer is familiar with this personality test during her study in USA(?)..

to be continued...