*I miss this place so much…* Wow, my last “at random” post was in May 2010!

Oh.

I’m kind of glad listing my resolutions like how they did in “Arashi no Shukudai-kun”… they become more reachable & doable. I ACTUALLY make the efforts to identify any problems I have and ACTUALLY thinking of how to solve them. Better yet, I ACTUALLY do most of the solutions I’ve thought of. Though, honestly, I’m not satisfied yet…but this is a good start, isn’t it?

Recent life is “frequently” Arashified. Like having blue as my new favourite colour. Like having that interest in learning japanese return once again. Okay, this one is quite serious. I’ve lost complete interest in studying French language. For this semester (the 4th semester), I’m taking the final class (3rd level) of French… & I am not as excited as before. It’s more like “Let’s get this done quickly so that I can go home” every time I go to language class. No enthusiasm at all. But… partly might be because I have to attend the class at night… hmm. Maybe not that. Anyway..continue – Like stop watching TV. Ah~ This Arashi effect surprised me. I used to like to watch TV (even listed it as one of my hobbies), but now… I don’t bother much ‘cos… I have plenty of Arashi TV shows and Ohno doramas to watch. I don’t know if it’s for the better or worse, but that’s just how it is now. (Sabishii sou da ne… What a lonely life I have.. haha).

New semester ka? I didn’t blog much about the previous semester. Honestly, it was horrible. Man… I say that for every semester but the 3rd one was really, truly horrible…especially the ending (results). And here comes another Arashi effect. Like having Ohno-san’s kind of patience and my-pace-iness. This is obvious, I think. I’ve always struggle with these thoughts :

I try to assure myself that everyone is unique thus they have their own unique ways of teaching themselves. Instead, most of the time, I try to comfort myself that I am me, their unique ways don’t work for me & I don’t have to worry if I learn from a different route. And it’s not easy. It’s still hard now because I keep seeing how my methods don’t give out results as good as those “gifted-in-memorising” students. (Oct 15th, 2010 post)

Ohno Satoshi is a living proof of my method [assumed]. So I shouldn’t give up on it. *starts to stare into space* ---

Erm. Next one. Like having blind confidence. This one is quite insane. Watching Arashi in “VS Arashi” (where they compete with guests in several sport-ish games. Hah. Sorry to bother you with this fangirl fact) made me realise that ‘blind confidence’ is quite useful (though I think most of them are feints really). I called this insane because I can’t really explain why and how it helps to have blind confidence. Anyway…

Have to let this out here. I have a coursemate (a close friend) that I think is still angry with me because of my irresponsibility (arguable) in the previous semester. We are still friends, still talk and exchange a few jokes with each other… but there exists an unspoken distance between us. I am quite relieved actually (which is bad, I guess?)  because she often got on my nerves last semester (didn’t happen much in my first year). I did reflect on that mistake (which wasn’t entirely my fault) but at the same time I welcome this “distance”. Why do I sound so evil in this paragraph…? Oh, well. Whatever. *attempts an evil smile but eventually fails*

I’m glad I purchased this last month. It’s now “…temporarily not for sale” on YesAsia. Sigh. The power of first press edition/limited edition~