This year is different. It's going to be different. 

One new thing I did this year is opening a Paypal account.

It started from knowing that there are fans who sell the Limited editions (Japan version) of Arashi singles (obviously it's Arashi-related :P) on Livejournal. Of course, they are pricey... but I don't care if I could own the limited edition of "truth" & others that I couldn't purchase before... :D 

Anyway. This knowledge led to doing many other new things. First I went to CIMB bank & converted my ATM card to the debit card + ATM card. Then I realised their debit card doesn't permit online transactions ("no-card-present transactions not allowed").. which means I can't link it to my Paypal account! Boo. Then I moved on to my Maybank account. All I had to do was to sign up for a Maybank2U account... & also register my mobile phone for the TAC thing. I don't know if this is necessary for using the debit card but I felt uncomfortable if my number is not registered because I got used to TAC when using CIMBclicks. Then, it's done. Linked the cherry card successfully to Paypal...

Somewhat.. typing all these here seems insecure. I didn't mention anything private, did I?

So... two days ago, before Ohno's Spring dorama was confirmed, I ordered the novel (lol) & paid using Paypal for the first time (paid more but it's an easy way to purchase things online when you don't own a credit card) on YesAsia. I also ordered Arashi's latest album "Beautiful World" 's songbook. ...I'm very satisfied with my order :P. Glad I ordered the novel earlier because now it's temporarily out of stock (hopefully they'll manage to find a copy for me). I'm guessing that the novel is back hot in demand now in Japan as it's going to be a dorama next season. 

I can't wait for April to come!

...because I was sick.

Afternoon class (CG) was... URGGH. Honestly, if I choose to exaggerate, dying would be easier than surviving this class. Good thing I dropped out from the class I went to yesterday because this CG class is definitely going to rob all the time I have for myself & maybe... my time for other subjects too. Fortunately I'm not taking both Dr A's classes (no way I'm taking VR again!!) this semester. I'm going to focus on this one & only non-Math subject without having the burden to think of any other similar computer/programming subjects... & die a slow death while I'm at it (had I mention that dying would be easier? Oh yeah, I did). If this doesn't kill me, I still have other three Math classes to torture me to death, if death is necessary.

Yes, yes! I'm nervous!

I don't think I can handle this class... but what to do? I must take this subject this semester..or it will interfere with my 1-year extension plan. 

Met a coursemate (same batch) I haven't seen for a long time. At least I'm happy to know that I have a familiar face taking the same class. 

And... Ohno has a new dorama this Spring. 

A new dorama.

A new dorama.

A new dorama!!

A new dorama!!!!

A NEW DORAMA!!!!!

<3

Yesterday, I went to my first class of the semester... 

...which I had to drop eventually because the timetable clashes with another class. 

I'm still thinking really, what made my day felt so lousy yesterday? 

Was it because I suddenly got a text message telling me that the exam for the class I took during holidays was TOMORROW? 

But later on, I got another text from my friend saying it is postponed to next week. Rejoiced but it still didn't make me feel good.

Then it must be related to the class I just attended. Actually it's a repeat class but apparently the lecturer (a different one from my time) decided to split the class according to the programs the 1st year students are currently in. The program I'm in has a different timetable. I should be attending the Thursday class... unfortunately, I'll be taking another calculus class (Differential Equations) at the same time. The lecturer recommended to take the class next year instead of this semester. *suddenly had the urge to say bad things at this point* This is it, I think, the thing that polluted my day. Bleh. I guess I didn't like being given advice this way... it felt like I was being told off just because I'm repeating the class. It's a terrible feeling to have. 

... after sleeping early because I was upset for hours before doing this post, I'm kind of amused with myself because I discussed with her wholly in English... I think it was the longest conversation in English I ever had in campus since I entered university. 

Yes, I rarely speak English in my university life. Used to be a shy speaker ...but not anymore since Form 6 (I think). The thing is... er.. actually it's my own problem... & I'm sure this could be taken in a very different way... though generally it will come of as arrogant... the problem with me is, I rather speak in Malay if the other person is speaking broken English. Text messages are an exception though (& probably other written/type-written medium)... I usually text the way they text (because I presume that's their best way to convey & understand text messages). 

I know. Even I think of myself arrogant when I realised this. My parents have been telling me to just speak away because at the same time I'll be doing the other person a favour... 

...honestly, I still can't do it now.

This is the end of this post... but I while I'm here, I would like to do some pre-fangirling over Ohno's new Mon9 (fondly known as Getsu9/月9) dorama.

「鍵のかかった部屋」Kagi no Kakatta Heya (Locked Room)

FINALLY. 

FINALLY! 

What took him so long? :P

>Ohno-san, what took you so long???

But I have to admit that it's worth the wait. Gosh. It's the Mon9 slot dorama, people! I've been wanting him to get this slot since many other Johnny's artistes seem to get this slot so easily :P (Jun, twice). Not to mention, it's on FujiTV - yay for another leader-less VSA battle! Audience in Japan seems to watch TV real-time at days like Mon-Wed, which means higher viewership rating (which can bring to more Ohno doramas in the future)... This is almost like Maou again because it seems like some still have doubts about whether he could handle a Mon9 dorama.

It's actually not confirmed yet though... sort of. It's reported in a TV magazine (scans available since Monday) that is to be released today but there haven't been any newspaper reports available yet to verify the validity of the magazine report. Maybe today. Hopefully today. 

Some minutes later...

I've seen it already. A scan of the newspaper report. What's left is the noise (online articles reporting the same thing, people tweeting their opinions) in the morning.

Translated news on
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I'm very excited about this.

a continuation to previous post...

Day 5（月） - Started thinking how much I hate programming... "I really don't get this."

Day 6（火） - Class started late in the afternoon. Thought more of how I hate programming again... & I think Dr A hates me for not completing last night's assignment (which of course I did realised how stupid of me for not following my usual routine *rebellious*). Though... this felt like Miss Biol all over again. What's with me wanting to be approved by teachers/lecturers who are hard to please, huh? I hate to think that I'm this ドM.. Really... Maybe stoic is a better choice of word. No. Not anymore. Went on this road once before & the result was devastating. I shouldn't care what they think of me. I know what's my best way to learn things & I'm going to stick to that method from now on.

Day 7（水） - Still quite rebellious about doing assignment... nonetheless, I followed my routine. That didn't mean I could run the program smoothly though. Feeling a bit insipid & depressed during class... to the point where I started thinking whether studying something I've fell out of love with in my current university is a good decision or not. Since a year ago, I've thought so many times already in class about how I shouldn't be in that class. It was hard to follow what the lecturer say - partly because I didn't do some reading before class - but most often because I feel like I can just open a book and read at home without attending the class. I really hope the university rule for 100% attendance every semester is changed :/

Day 8-9 （木・金）

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I happened to read that Plato's quote in my Twitter timeline hours ago. It sounded so meaningful today. I wonder why... 

Maybe.. because lately, I've started noticing things from the way people treat & talk to me. I kept thinking "You really don't know me *smug smile*" or "You don't know what I'm capable of".. things like that, & I realised I could also be in the same position with them. Yes.. I can assume their character all I want according to my logics, feelings & sentiments toward someone, but I could still be wrong about them. Even if the person is someone who is [very] close to me. The reason is simple - we are not the same person. Of course I know most people are smart enough to know this is true (me included) but sometimes we forget about this. That someone whose character is considered generally unpleasant by the society might have his/her own problems that not everyone could relate to which made them what they are today.

...

Sigh. This is one of the things I never thought of doing this year - re-connecting with myself and Conscience. It's a good thing really... because I've started to love myself again and be more accepting regarding my talents and failures.

I'm in a somewhat intensive programming class which helps prepare for a course I'm taking next semester. It's not even a sure thing yet if I could continue next semester :/... which made me feel worried in the beginning (oh. and I joined them a week late :P)... but in the end I just, well, put up with all the embarrassment (for what? is kind of complicated :P) I felt for myself & be in a "thick-skinned" mode to survive this. This week's class ended predictably with another group assignment.

Day 1（火） - Kind of worried about going to class. My friend (a coursemate in the same batch with me) was late. In class, while others are busy writing codes, I was taking my own sweet time installing the needed software :P...

Day 2（水） - Was in a situation similar to Nodame's Music History (or Appreciation?) class in the Paris SP. Clueless as to what should be done & what I did wrong (which was because of a mere semi-colon missing *huh*). If I care very much, I think I would be crying depressingly already.

Day 3（木）- Class started late in the afternoon. Made use of the extra time to complete yesterday's assignment... which was kind of fun once you figured out how to use the codes. I think Dr A kind of doubt I created it myself (I did expect this to happen though) but not really in a bad way... He was saying things like, "See...You can do it if you just work a little harder..." .. though what came to mind when I heard this was if he knew that I'm really a lazy, procrastinating person.. honestly, I felt caught red-handed :D. He even said "...You have to graduate this year!" I laughed inside because that would definitely not be this year... unless he meant something else? (like I didn't reach the 2.0 mark...? 怖いな.... )

Day 4（金）- Good day. I didn't miss much... but I'm kind of out of focus all day because I lacked sleep the days before. 

These days were... what was it.. I felt like I'm being tested, you know... whether I should be allowed to continue my studies or not... because Dr A is our new head programme... & he already knows about our exam results..

Maybe I'm being oversensitive...

Anyway... I'm just figuring this out quite slowly - this programming stuff - I catch up with things eventually though it's a bit slower.. BUT I really, really intend to learn this properly... & because I know I learn things this way better, it has to be according to my own pace.. so I shouldn't feel left behind if I just understood yesterday's lesson today.

Though it might be kind of sad to hear that I'm being quite optimistic (or maybe extra positive pessimistic) now because I have really high hopes for a new dorama with Ohno next season (rumoured to be a Mon9 or Tues9 dorama *good timeslots IMO*:D) . Hehe. 

I'm not changed at all. 

Still an Ohno & Arashi fan.

<3