I started keeping a diary since 1998. I was 10 years old.

At that time, I used the organizer book given (or bought? I don’t know) by AIA as my diary (now I prefer thick, without-dates journal). I didn’t always fill it in, not everyday. Mostly I wrote about the chinese serial dramas I was watching on TV. It was kind of a collection of short reviews (on dramas)… With my opinions on certain scenes. Looking back at it now, I can hardly call it a diary but there you have it. I did write about things that made me mad which usually involved my family members and sometimes friends at school, but only a few…

I became serious at writing my diary two years later. I don’t remember when it started. The entries were mostly negative things (I still wrote about serial dramas on TV)… I thought of it as  a way to ‘put down’ those frustrations and annoyance at school somewhere. It didn’t help to dispel my anger but it sure was a relief to let it out. I also started writing those entries in English. Broken English at first… haha. Wrong choice of words and wrong tenses, all that problems but I kept writing in English. I think it did helped improved my English essays, or if not… at least the experience gave me more confidence to write English essays.

At some point, I didn’t care if someone read my diaries… I mean, it’s personal… but sometimes I wished someone read it so that they’ll understand me better. I do worry though, if the people mentioned in it read it. ;P

Hmm.. Maybe that’s why started blogging. But I don’t blog the way I write into my diary. I am very, very biased in my diary. I don’t exactly have to be right but anybody else can’t defy me. It’s like that. I only want the Diary to ‘listen’.

I didn’t stick to it faithfully… I even skipped some years, which is too bad in my opinion. Bad because I won’t have the “complete” edition when I lose my memory. Lol. One weird reason why I insist on keeping a diary is to assist me when I unexpectedly have amnesia (I thought of this BEFORE watching “Samantha Who?”) due to yet-to-be-known accidents in the future. Not that I’m asking for an amnesia (or want it…).. duh. Nothing wrong with getting ready, right? Anyway, if it does happen… I thought my past diaries will help me remember or help me “get to know” myself again.

Since I started studying in university, I seldom write into my diary anymore. Recalling the “memory loss” reason now, I think I really should get back to daily diary writing.