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Black Christmas

Posted in: ~Wednesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Life | Old Blog | トリック

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Originally posted on Wednesday, December 28, 2005 in my old blog
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Aiii...*sigh* The Christmas I had this year is the most 'blackest' of all... some good things did happened...but...

My parents bought us a handphone each! I was so surprised when I received my 'Sony Ericsson J210i' handphone (& it's green, my fav colour!). Never thought they really were going to buy it.

It may sound ridiculous but I have a very bad habit of avoiding (sometimes also hating) anything popular, including the trend of owning a handphone (when you are still in school;which most teenagers find it's cool) & I never read any of the Harry Potter books (but I watched the movies so I'm planning to read afterwards...)... When I think the time is right then only I'll 'follow the flow'.... yeah, I know, I'm a weird girl....(of cos, with some exception)

Oh yeah, there's a new section under the links section: Fanlisting. Listed are everything I like to read, watch, listen etc....(so many pics, gonna take a long time to load...)..gee, I can't find any fanlisting site for Trick series...(there are several pics that link to the same site...I can't resist it...I want to have everything in order & also to include my fav characters...=P)
Anyway, Happy New Year!!!

p/s: During these holidays I'd went to Tips of Borneo (Mengayau) & Tuaran's Crocodile Farm (for the first time!).. & the sceneries at Mengayau were magnificient!

Time: 2005-12-28T13:09:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Wednesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Life , Old Blog , トリック


Another SAD day.........

Posted in: # Love of the Aegean Sea | ~Sunday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Death | Family | Life | Old Blog | Personal Thoughts

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Originally posted on Sunday, December 11, 2005 in my old blog
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I've watched it again. I don't know why, when I'm feeling unhappy I just feel like watching the last eps of QDAQH.

My grandpa died this morning. & now both my grandpas are not in the world anymore, leaving my grandmas alone. & it's the first time I saw my mum cried this morning (because it was her dad who has died). We visited him at the kampong yesterday & he still looked fine to me that time. Although I have a strange feeling in my heart. My aunt said it was hard to understand what he's(grandpa) talking lately, like as if he could not talk properly anymore. That should have serve as a sign, we should have seen & felt it...... & my relatives in Tawau was planning to go there today which I'm afraid they are too late to meet him before he go...

I'm not really close to him but deaths really affect me very much since I watched QDAQH. Do we really have to go through deaths of our loved ones in our life? Frankly speaking, I'm getting scared of deaths. When our loved ones are dead, that means we can't speak to him anymore, we can't hear his voice anymore, we can't see him anymore, we can't....

In Gokusen, Kuma had a fight with his father before his father died the day later. He didn't even have the chance to say sorry to his father. I'm afraid sth like that would happen

& when the Prime Minister's wife died, I also feel somewhat sad as if she's a part of our family.

Does this mean I can't accept death as a natural thing anymore in the future?

I don't know.




side note on QDAQH:
*I noticed that after the scene Yi Qian stabbed En Qi, where En Qi mysteriously appeared at the hospital telling Xiao Tong "It will be alright." there's a sound like a patient's bed being pushed behind the scene. I was wondering if that is En Qi's body that went past Xiao Tong who was sleeping. & he asked her not to worry; that Yao Xiang will see the sunlight tomorrow as if he has already known he will. He seems knew that his heart will be 'taken out' to let Yao Xiang lives.........
*& it has long bothers me that what Xiao Tong's action in the end really means. She will continue living alone without Yao Xiang(doesn't want to follow what En Qi wanted) until she's old & died? Or is she planning a suicide? (so that explains why Yao Xiang felt the pain in his chest-En Qi knows what Xiao Tong plans to do.....) Hard to accept. Well, it's only a thought of mine, doesn't really means anything.
*Oh yeah, another thing(non-related to QDAQH)---I think Yang Si Lang could be saved if his brother makes it in time to find him. I've seen people in ancient serials that were shot by an arrow (or more) still survive to the end of the serial..except if the arrow shot by the old man is poisoned (why did an old man still working as a soldier??? He must have guard that place for a long time that his arrow had rusted already...so.... tetanus? & about Yu Yan, I think she could be dead too cos she was not supposed to go out in the cold weather (it will be hazardous to her health)...so if we take the idea that Si Lang died because of the rusted arrow & Yu Yan died because she went out, then both is not lonely anymore because they both died together.


It's death all over today...........

no besto today........

Time: 2005-12-11T10:54:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Love of the Aegean Sea , ~Sunday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Death , Family , Life , Old Blog , Personal Thoughts


Yes!!!!!! IT's OVER!

Posted in: ~Thursday Posts | 1st post | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Thursday, December 01, 2005 in my old blog
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...not really over....still got EST & PP paper this Friday & Monday...

But all the deadly papers are over....settled....finished!!!!!! & now I can start rambling again..!!

Diao Man Gong Zhu is out already...because I'm so tempted to read all the spoilers given by those who have watched it ... I've download it myself. (this reminds me about MSQY... the VCDs are out in S'pore already but I still can't find it here in M'sia... maybe I miss sth)

I watched till Eps 7...ummph..I still not impressed by the story (except anything related to the emperor!!!! Alec is so kawaii playing as the emperor & his chemistry with Wen Mei Er (yes, Wen Mei Er) was good...(still can say anything about him with Situ Jing)...although it's not like watching Xiao Zhao with Zhang Wuji...it's still good. No offence but Bai Yun Fei still looks old to me (& what's the matter with his hair??...it's kind of out of place...or it's because of my eyes? *Yabe's wigs looks better than that!!*)... & I finally saw the guy who acted as Song Yuen Qiao in HSDS acting as a baddie! LOL...he always look like a baddie to me in HSDS(but he's not bad in there)

oh yeah, I forgot! The theme songs...

Well, the opening was "Fan Zhuo Ne" but it's the other version...the not-Alec's-voice version!! Really suprised by this at first, esp in the end they show the credits & it was stated that the song is sang by Alec & Jang Nara!!! misleading info!!!!

the ending is Alec's song....titled: Ni Shi Wo De..
I love the title, "You Are Mine", the lyric are lovey-dovey, but I like it!
(En Qi once said the same thing to Xiao Tong!)

Time: 2005-12-01T13:25:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Thursday Posts , 1st post , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years


*What I did today*

Posted in: ~Monday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Dorama | Old Blog | Personal Thoughts | School: SPM Years | トリック

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Originally posted on Monday, October 10, 2005 in my old blog
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Keywords for today's post: Alec in Japan, pathetic, doctor, Dragon Sakura, Gokusen, mum, dad...etc AHHHH, just read on!!!!!

Pathetic!!!!!
Reading the local newspaper this morning~ in front of the page of Daily Express(malay version...yes, yes... this newspaper comes in 3 languages..3 in 1...english/malay/kadazandusun). There was this 2 pics, I must say it was pathetic!!!...one was a dead turtle (found in Tanjung Aru) & the other a baby.. Turtle & its eggs are protected in Sabah, seeing the pic - I feel a lump in my throat.. What happened to the turtle, who or what cause it's death? If a human being (or more) did it on purpose (meaning:kill it purposely), I wish them the same fate with the turtle (I know it's a wicked thought, but... I'm really disgusted by this) ..... & the baby, it was a good thing he/she is now in a stable condition... The baby (with mosquito bites all over) was found in a box by someone in Bongawan!!! I reckoned it was on purpose he/she was 'dumped' by the family (his/her parent) because he/she was put in a box.. Terrible parents, should also die like the turtle!! Pity the baby!!

Pathetic!!!!

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Watched TV3's "Malaysia Hari Ini" (MHI) this morning.. I really have to say the interview with Dr. S. Mahendra Raj (oh! I remember his name! weird..), a gastroenterologist, was interesting!.. (They were discussing about stomach-related sicknesses)... I love the way the doctor explain things (no! I didn't fall in love with him!).. it makes me more wanting to become a doctor in the future! (Imagine.... Doctor Ruth....haha)

Speaking of doctors, I really wish my mum graduate next year, it has been years that she's having Ph.D with Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS) [LOL... I'm sorry if I'm using the terms wrongly, I'm not familiar with university's terms]. It's hard for her, switching between work & doing her research (or thesis?) paper. & now she's done, she still need to wait for her professor to check it (with the help of other pro's)

I know she has been through a lot of stress these years...

Although it's hard for me to regard family as FAMILY, they are at least CLOSE FRIENDS to me. My mum's pursue for higher education (or what?) inspired me...

I really admire her for that..her determinations, her achievements...

& my dad? I admire his patience & tolerance (oh, well, although sometimes.... okay maybe always, I have arguments with him)

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Alec is in Japan (currently) for the promotion of eegekai no koi (see my [FeVeR pOsTs] on "Love of the Aegean Sea") [2021-03-07 edit: Dead link removed]

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Currently, watching (& DL-ing) Dragon Sakura (some ppl says Dragon Zakura) & Gokusen (LOL....after watching Trick, I really have to watch more Abe Hiroshi & Nakama Yukie!!)

...So far, what I can say about these 2 serials... they are as GOOD as GTO (they share the same school theme) ...no copycats (although there are some similar things that happened in both or those 3 serials)

Each of them (GTO, Gokusen, & Dragon Sakura) are unique (in all aspects) on their own.

[It's kind of funny watching Ueda-san in Dragon Sakura (Abe Hiroshi) & Yamada-san in Gokusen (Nakama Yukie) because both serials reminds me a lot of "Trick". Detective yabe is the Head Teacher in Gokusen - there was a scene where there was a welcoming party for the new teachers in school; he addressed Yamaguchi-sensei(Nakama's character) as Yamada-sensei!!!..]


^_^



Time: 2005-10-10T11:00:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Monday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Dorama , Old Blog , Personal Thoughts , School: SPM Years , トリック


Aaaiiiii......*sigh*

Posted in: ~Thursday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Life | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Thursday, September 22, 2005 in my old blog
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Aaaiiiiii......*sigh*

Chemistry
Anybody would enjoy being taken care by other people even if you didn't say it.. Doesn't it feels good when someone asks about your problems & gives you his/her support & advice? It sure does.

I actually don't quite like my Chemistry teacher, Miss Jenny C.O.L. She is too friendly to her students...this is what has always cause disturbance to her class. When they are talking, laughing, joking around etc she forgots to finish the thing she is teaching...

But today she gave me a different feeling... She asked me about my Chemistry Paper (sth that rarely happened) ...& made an announcement to the class to tell everyone not to be stingy with their knowledge... PLEASE HELP RUTH to understand (the concepts etc)...

I think that was sweet (although I feel a bit embarrassed..>_<)... With such caring teacher, I don't mind studying hard (notice it's 'HARD' not 'SMART') for her.


My Bratty Princess : Fan Zhuo Ne (duet song-Alec Su & Jang Nara)

Saw the MV for this song...hehehe more Emperor & Princess scenes... Now, the serial drama looks more promising... but I can feel that the story will be full of misunderstandings..hmmm

The lyric for the song was very simple & direct... The girl don't know which one to love.. the boy kept asking her who's the one... The girl became tired of thinking who it will be.. (& need help from other ppl)... In the end, she gave up thinking cos she's hungry!!

I would want to see Alec & Jang Nara sing that song live on stage!

Time: 2005-09-22T16:22:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Thursday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Life , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


I'm Sorry Mr. Ooi!!!!!

Posted in: ~Friday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Me. | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Friday, September 09, 2005 in my old blog
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I can't make it. Mr Ooi H.S., I can't answer your Physics exam paper. I'm just too stressed....

Time: 2005-09-09T16:46:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Friday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Me. , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years


MoRe aBoUt LiFe+

Posted in: ~Wednesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Life | Me. | Old Blog | Personal Thoughts | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Wednesday, August 31, 2005 in my old blog
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今天很倒霉。。。

Went to school had parents-teacher-student meeting ~ got a NOT SO GOOD results.

& Dad bugged me all night about what had happened to my results & went on blaming me spending so much time on computer..bla..bla..bla

I, myself don't even really understand what the problem is. A very bad result [yet, I tried harder than before for this first trial exam] ~ It took me some time to realise that whatever had happened was merely caused by my intentions to GET ATTENTION from teachers. I performed badly to get their attention & to gain their concerns. All in the hope of increasing my self-confidence & motivation.

Removed paragraph indicating my identity.

"Isn't its good to study not because of exams.... (but because we want to/interested to~)," my friend, Khairul said a few days ago.

I may be too young to know how the education system in Malaysia work but one thing I realised, we rely a lot on exams to show how good we are in academic achievements. People judge your intelligence by counting your A's (your exam results). Teachers favour you when you do exceptionally well in the subject he/she teaches(those who fail/didn't get good marks--teachers don't care about them anymore. Malaysian own exam-oriented education system may produce a lot (is it? I'm doubtful about it) people with tonnes of A's printed on a sheet of paper - but is it what we really want? what we really need?

These 'products' may graduate from universities with good results but are they balancedly developed? They may have highly-paid jobs (duh...some are too picky, they are still jobless till now) but do they really enjoy doing it? A life without fun is like a canvas painted by a bad painter - their paintings have no value. No originality. No creativity. Robotic students will eventually turn into monsters (because of stress - commit suicide). Everything is so fake & dull.

Each people have different types of learning ability. There may be no such thing as stupid people but fast-learners & late-learners exist...... Fast-learners have the biggest advantage yet most of them have the common learning disease - LAZY (like me..)...Ironically, the late-learners are DILIGENT because they know they have to work harder to compete with the fast-learners.

School makes me bored. I'm bored to death attending classes in school. I'm bored not because of the subject the teachers teach but BORED because in all the classes, the teachers TEND TO FOCUS MORE on teaching/telling us about 'HOW TO SCORE WELL IN SPM'. Why did the education ministry provide all the subjects in the first place????? No need to waste time translating books on Maths, Biology, Chemistry etc because all that doesn't matter. We don't learn about the subjects, we learn about memorising the right answer & right answering technique for SPM. The Ministry of Education might as well rename the subjects to HTS- (HTS=How-to-Score).... So don't produce those thick textbooks anymore, just publish a booklet on answering tips, we'll memorise it & surely we'll GET MANY A's PRINTED (this is meant to be ironic sarcastic...) on our result paper.

ALL this exam orientation create a situation where learning new things is no more fun anymore. No joy of getting our mind's curiousity fed by our own efforts. We are obliged to memorise the right technique to answer the exam questions. Don't care how much you understand, JUST MEMORISE IT, MEMORISE IT!!!!!! & you'll get good results in UPSR, PMR, SPM, STPM..... (also..ironic sarcastic)

To the Malaysian Ministry of Education & all the teachers :
DID YOU KNOW HOW MUCH HAVE I SUFFER BECAUSE OF THIS? Did you know how much have I suffer just to adjust myself to suit the exam-oriented learning ways in school? I'm not trying to blame others for my bad results, BUT .....JUST THINK ABOUT IT!!! I have my own way of pursuing knowledge...

"You fail to be like others, but you'll never fail being your own self."~


I can't!!! I can't apply myself to the way learning/teaching is conducted in school, never it will be....

I don't intend to disappoint my parents. My dreams are theirs. It's just that I can't change myself just to become similar or equal to the formal way of learning.

[Off topic: Loneliness...has been a great companion of mine all this years. He's my bestfriend, he's my only family. I can't regard my family as family. I see them more as a friend or someone close that I know. I can't confide my feelings or problems in them. I was thinking of going to the school counselor but seeing the person ~ I think she could not help anything. I need a person more trustful than those I know.]

Teachers.....I can't credit them for teaching me a lot of things (except for some)...Because I don't think any of them did (at least to me-lah). Teachers are nothing but teaching robots that breathes like human & they can't feel. They have no feelings. An unfeeling thing - I HATE UNFEELING THINGS. Teachers only think of their own reputation.

Oh, well, not all of them are robots. Some 1 or 2 teacher(s) is/are human anyway. Like my teacher I can't forget in Primary School.

Teachers 'love' being flattered by suck-up students (which most of them ended up being teacher's pet). Their nostrils get bigger [LOL...I just translated the malay phrase-'Kembang Hidung' which means they become so flattered to the extent where they'll forget about themselves]...hearing the student's praises, sweet talks etc & these kind of teacher doesn't care a bit of those who can't speak sweet things..... I thought Miss Nirmaljeet Kaur was one of them, till the last day of school (yr 2000)... I was disappointed because I only got 4A & 1B for my UPSR exam. I think I failed everybody's hope. No teachers will turn their face to me again.

But my classroom teacher, Ms Nirmal gave me a present after 'Majlis Penyampaian Hadiah' (its the last day of school)....I was stunned...On top of the precious gift was a note written by herself:
To Ruth,
Strive for the best, you have the potential.
Remember my words, "Never Give Up".
Love, Teacher Nirmal.
2000


I was happy by then. She does care about me...

That is why I'm still standing straight till now, fighting for my destiny. I suffers a lot & I'm bound to change the fate of the children in the future. Less exam-oriented system, less stress, better life...

~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~@~

2003 PMR TOP SCORERS

(just sth I wrote about myself which was published in my school magazine)
I wrote:


"I did not expect to get 7A's for my PMR as my results for History & Science were not satisfactory throughout the year. I was shocked but excited when I recieved my results. The joy was also shared by my family especially my parents. Like what the principal had said before we sat for the exam, I had given them a very meaningful Christmas Gift.

I dislike memorising notes because I believe understanding could help me to remember better. During revision, when it comes to re-reading notes, I olny chose those that I did not fully understand so that I could save time for more revisions. Doing more practice helped me to remember certain notes.

I thank my parents for not forcing me to study because I hate being forced to do something. Our principal, Mr. Ng & all the teachers who taught us deserve credits for the motivation given before the exam. I personally want to thank my former Primary Six teacher, Miss Nirmaljeet Kaur for the trust & encouragement she gave me."


Side note:
-Despite what I said before about teachers, THE TEACHERS (when I'm in FORM 3) did gave me encouragement before the exam. I remember Miss Teh's words.
-They typed my favourite teacher's name wrongly!!! (I corrected it in this post)
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p/s: LOL.....Afdlin Shauki has his own blog!!! I just knew about it when I read Sunday's newspaper!


Time: 2005-08-31T16:19:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Wednesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Life , Me. , Old Blog , Personal Thoughts , School , School: SPM Years


Lets Get Quiet !!!!

Posted in: ~Tuesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Tuesday, August 23, 2005 in my old blog
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I feel much lighter after 'having holidays' for 2 weeks. Less stress... I think what I can do now to save myself is keeping myself happy & think positively...

It's hard to get into my world... I don't reveal my thoughts easily to other people... In short, it's hard to read me... I have a very complex personality, I think differently from others in my class.

Sometimes...loneliness fills me...

I don't think I have problems in communicating... it's just that I'm VERY PICKY in everything. If I don't like someone, he/she will be in my AVOID LIST. I'm very reserved in class, but when I don't speak, that doesn't mean I'm stupid or friendless... I see, I listen, I observe my surroundings... I brood a lot...

Starting today, I'm keeping my mouth shut in class, getting more & more quiet, & speak or anwsers when only needed.....

I will channel my thoughts by blogging... that will keep me from getting crazy... I think I'll do more translations related to Alec starting today....
I'm not a professional translator... I just translate base on my on understanding (with the help of online dictionaries).. & I only includes interesting parts only, I'm lazy to translate the whole article.. But translating is fun, & I believe in the phrase, "Practice makes Perfect". Forgive me if I translated wrongly.

There is an article from "The Magic Touch of Fate" sina site that I found quite interesting. Here goes--

蘇有朋聊《魔術奇緣》:曾經為劇本流淚 [Link]
~Su Youpeng talks about "The Magic Touch of Fate" : Moved to tears because of the script ~

Alec once cried because of the script. He said: "Very touching. The male lead went through many kinds of hardship. A poor lad who still struggles positively even in difficult times - reminds me of myself during the time I went to China to film 'Huan Zhu Ge Ge'. That time, I just started my career as an actor. Being in a place I'm not familiar with... it's the same with what happened to the male lead. That is why I want to portray this character.

Alec was the one who 'dragged' Ruby Lin into the serial. He said :"She came because of me. There are some of her *scenes that have too much problem. Everyone was worried if she can complete the filming smoothly. She acted very well. She once said 'Don't worry-lah, I will not embarrass you de."

The articles also mentioned about the Korean filming team--sth about Korean having many rules. Niu Meng Meng said if you yawn during filming, you have to bow to the whole filming unit & say 'sorry'. The yawning thing could angers the director. She was also required to wash her hair everyday after finish filming by the Korean make-up assistant.(*because its not hygienic when it smells.. LOL... agreed 100%.. I also wash my hair everyday!)

<<The end


Time: 2005-08-23T16:19:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Tuesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


Sweet.....

Posted in: ~Monday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Monday, August 22, 2005 in my old blog
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Today, went to school....
Initially afraid of what will happen when I walk into the classroom...

LOL... nothing big happened...

But I think the teachers today are exceptionally nice...
Moral teacher ~trying to give me help in how-to-answer problems
Biology teacher ~she asked about my absence...

The concern (although not that much) they gave feels so sweet.....

Wouldn't it be good if it is always like that.......

Time: 2005-08-22T14:16:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Monday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years


School : Thinking~~

Posted in: # Love of the Aegean Sea | ~Wednesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Life | Old Blog | Personal Thoughts | School | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Wednesday, August 17, 2005 in my old blog
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Did a lot of thinking during sick....

School & Friends
Including this week, I've been 'holidaying' at home about 10 days of school days. Now, I'm getting a back-to-school fright. When I recover from this sickness, I'll be back to school, carrying back all that stress - my unfinished Art Folio Project, Seekers club reports...& I'll be so much behind my classmates(they must have been done with discussing the answers for last SPM trial exam)... & I'll be having the second SPM trial exam on 5 Sept..... AHHHH...... all these make me feel like fainting.... I can't even study at home (truly, how can you study with all these ugly thing on your skin?......I abhor chicken pox!!!!!).

Besides, I'm still discouraged by the way teachers act at school. Oh, how I wish there will be a teacher like Eikichi Onizuka in school. A teacher who will never treat his students as TRASH & never calls them TRASH. (well, my teachers do not call us TRASH but some of them have this attitude of treating us as we are trash if you are not his/her best student......). An easy-going teacher, someone you can go to when you have problems.... someone approachable as if he is your bestfriend... .......

Anyway, the word 'friend' does not mean a lot to me anymore like before... I had experienced betrayal & loneliness... When you have friends, that doesn't mean you can't feel lonely... I do... I remember an incident that happened when I was in Primary 6 (12 years old)... A friend I had known since we were 6 years old... It was my UPSR exam year.. I didn't know when did it happened or started, she began to be friendly with some other friend(a gang of girls)...oh, well.. I was not being jealous or what (ok, maybe a little...) I didn't object to their relationship... but they started to get so close to each other, started fooling around, seemed to not bother their studies(Studying is my first priority~)... & she seemed didn't care about everything I spoke to her... I feel so alone.. & eventually, making 'studying is more important' as a reason to myself, I made a foolish decision. At least, at that time, I thought it was what I should do. I did something like En Qi in Eps 23/24 in 'Love of the Aegean Sea'. I started to act cold towards her. I seldomly talked to her. & I succeed. She changed her siting position in class. From beside my desk to the desk near to her new gang friends. I pretended I didn't feel a thing... I pretended I was happy with the new person siting beside me... I pretended everything was okay... I became quite sensitive by then... a lot of things that moved my feelings happened during that year (yr 2000).. but I suppressed my feelings well...

But this year, it had gotten worste... you know how lonely it feels when you have friends who always speak to you about their problems (I do always listen to them!!)...yet you can't speak to them about your problem... it seems they are not the right person who can help you, they doesn't even have the intention to listen to you... how discouraging...

*BIG SIGH*

Love of the Aegean Sea Part 2?
This serial always set me off thinking over things. WILL & SHOULD there be a sequel to this serial? (Love of the Aegean Sea Part 2). I read this (of course it is not 100% true) but the story do have some similarity with the sequel I created in mind. The story from that site goes on with Xiao Tong & Yao Xiang travelling across the world taking photographs, then they meet someone that looks like En Qi in Korea(named Cui Zhi Jian...*making a wild guess* maybe Choi Ji-gun in korean). Apparently, this person, although looks like En Qi, his charactistics are a big opposite to En Qi's... a person you always find in bars... depends on women to live... Well, Xiao Tong is interested in him, always treating him well.. Yao Xiang worries that he will hurts her, & always find him to discuss...& the plot goes on with Zhi Jian touched by Xiao Tong's hospitality...& what will happen when he knows that he is only a replacement for En Qi etc... Hmm...the story is so much different...no more platonic love...

Personally speaking, if the producers are thinking of creating a sequel, they must have a very excellent script & plot to make it a big success... (Maybe they don't really need to do a serial drama, a 2 hours movie could also do...)...

Another thing that always bothers me is this phrase, "En Qi is so weak." I don't know how to describe this feeling but EN QI IS NOT WEAK! There is so much I want to talk about this character, so I'll do it in a post specially dedicated to him.

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Serial Dramas on TV
I don't quite like all the chinese drama in TV this time around. I'm bored by TVB's "Perish In the Name of Love" - I don't like this serial, so unexciting... Charmaine Sheh's character is so boring... Steven Ma.. also the same.. Although I kind of like the story between the emperor and the queen (Cheong Peng's mother) I still rate this drama (overall) 6½ out of 10 stars.

TV2's "Find the Light" was quite good at first but now has bored me. Rated ½ star more than "Perish In the Name of Love" by me, I like the story between Chan Tuo Yong & Wong Ng's mother...also Tam Chi Tong & his wife's (Yun Yi) story. I don't like the princess.

Yesterday, Dicky Cheung's "Monkey King etc" (long title, don't remember...sort of like a Part 3 for "Journey to the West") ended. It's A GREAT RELIEF to me. Don't like that serial drama. Sun Wu Kong's characteristics were different from the one in Part 1 & Part 2 of "Journey to the West".... I don't like the one who act Tang San Zang either... I prefer Kong Wah more. The serial is too star-studded, I lost interest after watching a few episodes.

I think QUALITY is MUCH MORE IMPORTANT than QUANTITY.


"Lofty Waters Verdant Bow" replaced that serial. This one looks more interesting & it has some actors I like to watch.... (I love Raymond Lam in "Eternal Happiness", though I don't like that serial that much).... Just watched the first episode today, missed 20 minutes in the beginning, but I think I like it already...hehe..

Time: 2005-08-17T11:54:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Love of the Aegean Sea , ~Wednesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Life , Old Blog , Personal Thoughts , School , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


>> It's confirmed!!!!!!!! <<

Posted in: ~Monday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Monday, August 08, 2005 in my old blog
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Chicken Pox!!!

Time: 2005-08-08T13:26:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Monday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , School: SPM Years


I think I'm sick............

Posted in: ~Sunday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Me. | Old Blog | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Sunday, August 07, 2005 in my old blog
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hmmmm........still have fever & headache since yesterday....

I think I got chicken pox....(like my brother)....

weeks of staying at home...looking from the bright side--I'll have more time to surf the net & DL things~~

Time: 2005-08-07T20:19:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Sunday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Me. , Old Blog , School: SPM Years


....O=O... Oh No!

Posted in: ~Tuesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Tuesday, August 02, 2005 in my old blog
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What am I doing here at this hour??????????? I should have been studying for tomorrow's exam paper....

Oh well.....who cares? I don't care anything anymore... I'll do whatever I please.....!
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Yay!!!!! I got to enter Alec's site again.... It was down a few days ago....

Alec & Chae Rim was in Chongqing, promoting 'Warriors of the Yang Clan'!!!

Dead PB account. You can see the photos here.

Oh..........they look so cute together!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: Chae Rim's hairstyle reminds me of Song Hae-Kyo's at her promo of "Full House" in Taiwan recently (watched in TV3's From the Green Room....it's a pity, Bi was not there...).

Hi...hi...hi... my birthday is getting nearer.....(& Alec's too)

Time: 2005-08-02T17:55:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Tuesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


~~hOsPiTaL & LaGu KeBaNgSaAn...

Posted in: ~Friday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | Personal Thoughts | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Friday, June 10, 2005 in my old blog
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Yesterday, my sister went to the hospital to see the dentist after having toothache for nearly a week.... I went with her because my mum wanted me to accompany her... oh man,I waited so long... We went there in the morning (8-9 a.m) and went home at 12 p.m... It was a good thing that I brought along my Physics reference book....(hoho...& I brought along my calculator & stationery too).. at least I didn't waste my time...

The hospital was totally crowded!

Why can't they do sth to make the time waiting more shorter?... & the doctors (maybe including the nurses too)... some of them are just so annoying.. behaving like a snob... Private clinics are better from this aspect... they are quite more friendly... which must be because we will be paying a hundred times more ringgit for their service & medicines... & if you come earlier to the clinic, that doesn't mean you will be the first to get in the dr.'s room... someone, esp those who are related or have a more close relationship with the doctor, can come in before you although they arrived later than you...(this thing happened to my mum)...

Is it because the hospitals are lack of doctors??....(some doctors want to have their own clinic, right...) I'm not really sure... But, I do have some ideas in mind that would help solve this problem... How about having 1 or 2 doctors (with nurses) at the waiting section... they will treat patients with minor illnesses/injuries...

& also yesterday, I listened to Radio Era & they were discussing about having to sing the national anthem, "Negaraku" at the cinema before watching movies... Some sent sms telling she disagreed with that suggestion because they will lose their mood to watch movie if they have to do that...~duh~

Personally speaking, it's actually a great idea... Like somene who called the radio station said, it can help our people to be more patriotic esp the youngsters... This activity should not be done in cinemas only... It can be done before sport tournaments, before holding meetings in offices, before local artistes perform in a concert....etc...

Time: 2005-06-10T17:08:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Friday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , Personal Thoughts , School: SPM Years


~I wILL gIvE tHeM a BiG sUrPrIsE aFtEr ScHoOl HoLiDaYs~!!!!!

Posted in: ~Wednesday Posts | 1st post | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Learning Chinese Language | Me. | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Wednesday, June 01, 2005 in my old blog
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What kind of surprise it will be? Hehe... I'll keep it as a secret first...

So Ba Le (or Ba La as in Phoenix's translations at alecfanclub.net) is actually guava... hmm... I don't really like to eat that fruit...

Long way to go...

Actually translating Alec's news (those in chinese) into english is very challenging... There are some terms (esp those related to him that I'm not really familiar with...) in chinese that I don't understand... Oh, well... I'm not an expert in chinese either... I don't learn/take Chinese Language in school.. The last time I did was in kindergarten... [& I always have my chinese homework done last-minutely...]

I just started to get involved in this language when I was in Primary 6 (12 years old)... I started off slowly... I don't go to language classes... no teachers... I only have an old chinese dictionary I found at my father's book shelves which belongs to a cousin who worked in Taiwan before. It's in traditional chinese & that explains why I prefer that to simplified chinese when I find chinese materials to read (mostly related to Alec, of course).

I learnt more phrases from Alec's serials & songs...who says watching TV is a waste of time?? I have learnt a lot of things from there since little! Most of Alec's songs have beautiful lyrics... Okay, maybe I don't understand it fully but at least I understand a gist what it was about...

Time: 2005-06-01T12:30:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Wednesday Posts , 1st post , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Learning Chinese Language , Me. , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years


~~Happy Holiday~~

Posted in: ~Tuesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School | School: SPM Years

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Originally posted on Tuesday, May 31, 2005 in my old blog
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Wow! It's almost 2 weeks since I last posted to my blog... Hmm... I only have myself to blame le... I was NOT in a VERY good mood these 2 weeks... Just a week before school holiday, I was rushing to complete my MORAL EDUCATION FOLIO - have to decorate the cover & all that...(it got me crazy as my teacher said [at last minute!] that the photo I had taken for Bidang Alam Sekitar was not right!!!! & she wanted me to take another 2 new photos!!!)

& then just a few days before holidays, we had 4 PEKA, 2 for Physics & another 2 for Chemistry... And the teachers want the report fast... I haven't send my Physics PEKA experiment reports, though... Don't know how to write some part... I'm done with Chemistry PEKA report [& the teacher wanted us to hand it up a day after we had PEKA or next week's Monday (during Pesta Kaamatan, which is obviously a public holiday)] ...BUT...

When I went to school on holiday to hand that report in......guess what....The teacher's office was locked!!!!!!!!! WELL, of course it WAS NOT OPEN!!!! IT WAS HOLIDAY!!!!! Stupid me for trusting that teacher... How I hate that absent-minded teacher!!!!!! Hmmph.! At least I have a reason to tell her why I hand in late!!!


Also, in these 2 weeks, didn't do much internet activities except downloading... Two days ago, I couldn't connect through streamyx...wah really pissed off-leh..

Peng Wei Dong Tai will be closed soon....& Suching will be uploading Alec's goodies at her clubbox.... Good & Bad news at the same time...

Hmmm.....

Time: 2005-05-31T23:08:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Tuesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School , School: SPM Years


~/ My HeArT nEvEr StOpS bEaTiNg......... & It NeVeR sToPs LoViNg YoU \~

Posted in: # Love of the Aegean Sea | ~Monday Posts | 2005 posts | blog images | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Monday, May 16, 2005 in my old blog
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曉彤...我沒有離開過你...我的心也沒有停止過跳動......也沒有停止過愛你


~陸恩祈







Just finished watched 'Tru Calling' an hour ago.... Today's story is a sad one... A father with a daughter who need a heart transplant was shot dead by the grocerer and wants Tru to help him... Then Tru's day started severally because the wrong person died... It turns out that the father did suppose to die, without his heart being damaged... so that it can be given to his sick daughter...

*sigh*

My BIO teacher said if a person's heart stop beating then only we can say that he is dead. En Qi died... but his heart was given Yao Xiang & Yao Xiang managed to see the sunlight the next day as what En Qi had told Xiao Tong... His heart continues beating in Yao Xiang's body... Doesn't that mean En Qi really is still 'alive'? No wonder Xiao Tong can't forget him... & it was a good thing that Yi Qian didn't damage En Qi's heart...

Okay, better stop...I'm starting to get emotional...

Time: 2005-05-16T01:01:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Love of the Aegean Sea , ~Monday Posts , 2005 posts , blog images , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


Check this out!!! Pics from suyoupeng.com~~

Posted in: ~Thursday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | Personal Translations | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Thursday, May 05, 2005 in my old blog
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Images not included.

A part of the news mention about Alec & Jang Nara's first impression after meeting each other for the first time.
[pArTiAl]
(蘇有朋、張娜拉初見面互有好印象)

這是蘇有朋第四度和韓國明星合作,蘇有朋對張娜拉的第一印像是她本人比螢幕上漂亮、嬌小、機靈。而張娜拉也對媒體表示初見蘇有朋感覺他很斯文有智慧、很老實又很帥!

Alec's first impression:
Jang Nara is smart & looks prettier than on screen.
Jang Nara's first impression:
Alec is very polite/courteous & wise, very honest & handsome!!

Haha....


Time: 2005-05-05T16:09:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Thursday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , Personal Translations , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


See this!!

Posted in: # Love of the Aegean Sea | ~Sunday Posts | 1st post | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | Personal Translations | School: SPM Years | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Sunday, May 01, 2005 in my old blog
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Oh....it's the scene where they met for the last time.....

Gif not available (It's from QDAQH Eps 39). Dead PB account.

xIaO tOnG: [she drew a heart on the dusted window~actually it's the way both of them tell each other 'I love you'] I give you my support... Where's mine? (heart)

eN qI: [he looked around] I can't draw it for you here (no dusted place to draw ma.. .)... Let me owe you first... I'll give one tonight at home.

xIaO tOnG: [a bit disappointed yet...] Don't forget your promise!... See you at night!

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This was actually a long post including some translated news on the filming of 刁蛮公主 (Bratty Princess)... But there's too many images and I don't have time to arrange all those here...

Time: 2005-05-01T15:14:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # Love of the Aegean Sea , ~Sunday Posts , 1st post , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , Personal Translations , School: SPM Years , 蘇有朋


~Wo De Diao Man Gong Zhu~ starts filming on 30 April!!

Posted in: ~Tuesday Posts | 2005 posts | Cringy Teenage Years | Old Blog | School: SPM Years | TV | 蘇有朋

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Originally posted on Tuesday, April 26, 2005 in my old blog
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...wHeN tRaNsLaTed, It MeAnS --- 'My Bratty Princess' OR 'My Obstinate Princess' (Some fans at suyoupeng.com said this title is has more 'yi si' [meaning].... than "Diao Man Gong Zhu"... it sounded more like ~Alec's the main actor in the show! yay!.... haha...)

.: ChinesE NewS :. .: Chinese NewS at Alec's website :. .: TranslateD:.
Additional site---- .:Sina site--Ray LiU:. .: Muzi--Ray Liu :.

Latest news has it that there will be another actor from Hong Kong, Ray Liu, I never seen this actor before...


...& fans has started to be confused ... All complaints almost sound like this -- "Isn't Alec the main actor ma? Where does this Liu come from? Never heard it being mentioned in the past press conference before??" ...I'm also getting worried cos I can't stand watching those 30 episodes with Alec appearing only in few episodes...[side info: earlier it was said it is 150 episodes altogether...]

But another fan said.. "It couldn't be...because Jang Nara herself WANTS Alec to be her male lead..." -- She got a point there... so.... just wait for more news report-lah!


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Just finished watched 'Funny Wild Girl'--- this week's episodes is quite romantic ... Eun-hee's boss, Seo In-woo LIKES her and he does not hide his feelings... he make it clear that he will love her and wait till the day she has all her confidence back... In tommorow's episode, it seems she will be accepting him....hihi.... They quarrel a lot before falling in love with each other....

In Alec's new serial, I hope I will be seeing something like this ...haha.. imagine him quarrelling with Jang Nara....

Time: 2005-04-26T17:15:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: ~Tuesday Posts , 2005 posts , Cringy Teenage Years , Old Blog , School: SPM Years , TV , 蘇有朋


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