Here are some quotes I found from books, TV shows & songs that remind me of myself. 
Only four for now….

Sense and Sensibility, Chapter 23 (Jane Austen) 

She was stronger alone, and her own good sense so well supported her, that her firmness was as unshaken, her appearance of cheerfulness as invariable, as, with regrets so poignant and so fresh, it was possible for them to be.

During my black years (f4,f5), I always thought the same like Elinor. I thought I can deal with the stress of SPM alone. Besides, I believed no one can help me because it's such a small matter (I can imagine them saying, "Everyone has it..."). But I was wrong.

Pride and Prejudice, Chapter 36 (Jane Austen)

"How despicably have I acted!" she cried. "I, who have prided myself on my own discernment! I, who have valued myself on my abilities! who have often disdained the generous candour of my sister, and gratified my vanity in useless or blamable distrust. How humiliating is this discovery!..." - Elizabeth

My reaction towards myself when I discover how flawed my own character (in form 6 till recently) were just like Elizabeth's. Although I wasn't dealing with love matters, to know that I'm wrong and gets wronger and wronger day by day was a horrible feeling. I'm so ashamed of myself that I don't know how to make amends to the blemishes in my way of thinking. Now, I'm taking baby steps to re-build my character and improve my mind.

House M.D. (Season 2, Episode 11)

“You don't like yourself. But you do admire yourself. It's all you've got, so you cling to it. You're so afraid if you change, you'll lose what makes you special.” – Dr Wilson

Wilson added “Being miserable doesn't make you better than anybody else, House. It just makes you miserable.” after that. I was thinking recently… being happy can make me miserable too. (This is un-related to the after quote). Because happiness is not permanent and it’s a “luxury”/expensive to get. *smiles meekly* I don’t know since when I seem so unsure of happiness… I know it happens but it’s not something you should expect to happen for the rest of your life. That’s what I think, for now. Happiness is like some kind of accident or on-the-spot occurrence and not a way of life. (Just a thought. Might change my mind later)

“Believe in Me” song by Demi Lovato
(Listen?)

I'm losing myself,  Trying to compete,  With everyone else,  Instead of just being me.

Don't know where to turn,  I've been stuck in this routine,  I need to change my ways, Instead of always being weak.

…….
It's amazing what you can hide,
Just by putting on a smile.

I love listening to her songs since last year. Some of the lyrics of her songs described the “me” in the past. Particularly this song. While there’s two parts to the song (I didn’t get to do that “Now I believe in me” part), the beginning was enough to describe my SPM years. The teachers said the competitions were high in my class - I only realised it was a meaningless competition after SPM. – I mean… what competition? To get No. 1 in class? To get the biggest amount of A’s in SPM? Then what? How could someone else getting straight A’s affect my life? Yeah, okay, it can happen in some way (less chance to win scholarship etc)… but when you see how much life can offer you (other fields, interests, areas, skills etc), it suddenly doesn’t matter that much (as before).

A smile doesn’t always mean that the person is feeling fine or having a nice day. It’s quite easy to smile when you’re in trouble and don’t want other people to know.

It still surprises me how I sometimes managed to do that.