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Thoughts from YT

It rained today :/

7th Loop Trailer 2

Yeah... just saw the trailer just now.... why does it makes me want to reread the light novels again...???

CMBF #8

Finished watching both parts today. Ah... I love the final song ("第一次做人") that was performed by Nicky Lee, Zhang Yuan & Derek Ma. It was such an emotional performance that I also cried a bit... Also, men that shed tears are beautiful~!😊😭 A well-deserved high score!

Anyway, watching the performances before them reminded me again how hard work doesn't always give what you aim for. No guarantee you'll get what you want. Of course, that doesn't mean you should stop... and I guess it's fine if you think you deserve to get them because you worked hard for it but sometimes it just don't go smoothly.

Time: 2023-10-19T21:56:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: # 7th Time Loop , # Call Me By Fire , 2023 posts , Anime , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , The Weather Looks... , Weekday Musings , Youtube

Focus?

Today feels like a Saturday.

For some reason, I feel like I can focus(?) today. Maybe I'll read some [physical] books...? Or read those stuff that I procrastinated reading...

Made some progress watching a few anime in my Watch Later playlist. For now, it's under 25 videos... I really need to go watch them. Also, I feel mean. I liked watching Rudeus depressed in the few earlier episodes of Season 2. I don't know why. Probably my S side at work.

Time: 2023-08-08T21:42:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , Anime , Manga , My Do-S Side , Reading , Web Novels

Out of Sorts

Humid and hot day... and it actually affected me more today *sigh*

I've been reading more manga & web novels where the cockroach b*tches** getting their just deserts... so reading [digitally] has been very satisfying recently. Unfortunately, I also met more idiotic princes and that hasn't been fun (but it's satisfying to see those who got punished/feeling regretful). Met equal amount of both supportive and abusive family members though... they're at the 0 and 100 extreme levels. Of course, super supportive families are the best~

**also known as evil heroine-chans... coincidentally most of them are sisters or stepsisters, and they are so much more annoying than the usual ones

Time: 2023-07-31T20:47:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , Manga , My Do-S Side , No Mood , Reading , The Weather Looks... , Web Novels

The Worst

Posted in: 2023 posts | My Do-S Side | My Salty Side | Reading

(T__T)

I am stuck again with yet another web novel after reading its manga raw chapters on Pixiv. This one featured a main character (MC) with sh*tty family, sh*tty sister and idiot fiancé again... I was about to continue reading the web novel after the manga when I saw there are five chapters of ex-fiance's POV in the middle. So glad I decided to read those first because they told what happened after MC left. It sounded almost like tragic comedy I actually laughed.

Spoilers: MC was about to be married when she discovered her fiancé doing the deed with her stepsister (~~the place they were at looks like the place they're supposed to get married so super oof~~ on second thought, I think it's more like a room where the bride gets dressed but that's still oof). Stepsister said she's pregnant with his child. I haven't read that far yet but MC will leave the place (understandable, after the way she was treated). The ex's POV revealed that the child isn't ex-fiance's, but someone else. The best plot twist is... stepsister is not even pregnant. (I laughed out loud when I read this part because I expected it) But ex-fiance is still the jerk who cheated on MC so I think he's beyond redemption at this point. Another thing, before the reveal, both families kind of got side-eyed by the whole town because they are on MC's side. His friends don't want to associate with him. The families had to close their shops. The servants at MC's house resigned en masse. It was glorious, I tell you.

I'm really, really glad I read those chapters first! Now to MC's side of story...

Time: 2023-07-29T21:50:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , My Do-S Side , My Salty Side , Reading

I feel mean today

Humid, cloudy Friday.

This is another post dedicated to the happiness of villainesses who are affected by hurtful gossip - be happy~!!!

Today, I stumbled upon a few raw chapters of a manga where the male lead is the megane character - the aide of the prince that will become a prime minister in the future - and I think it's an okay manga. Simple plot really, but I can't stand how long it took for the Crown Prince (who's a total idiot in this one, sorry to say) to reach the condemnation event... what a slow burn it was! I guess it's to show how many chances he had to rectify himself/the situation... but seriously. What an idiot. *sigh*...I usually have a soft spot for those prince/king characters because they're usually interesting especially the cunning and black-hearted ones (hue hue hue) but this one.. oh gosh.. at least I get to see his I-lost-my-chance face. It wasn't that satisfying but I'll take it (better than nothing). The evil heroine-chan is the usual cockroach b*tch again - you know, the one who stole the prince but won't work hard after they got engaged - and this one gave me second hand embarrassment (but at the same time I was laughing satisfyingly... it's complicated *urgh*) because she was convinced that she's the saintess. Please, just... urgh no.

Oh yeah, I have to mention that the main character had a bit change of personality where she started speaking against the people who bullied her so that's interesting to see.. it doesn't usually happen that early.

Time: 2023-07-28T22:58:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , Currently Reading: 漫画 , Manga , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , Reading , The Weather Looks...

It's Not Thursday

Omg I almost made a Thursday 13 post thinking it was Thursday today lol

Sweet・The chocolate I'm eating while I do this post...

Orangey・Shopee XD (lol).. been window-shopping for large mugs on Shopee today. They have some beautiful and simple ones there...

Minty・Tried using Stevia today because we're out of sugar (it's those cups of hot milk tea *sigh*...). Read online that some people say it tastes like menthol (so minty?) but I'm not getting that taste when I tried it? (I'll try again with Stevia only later)

Salty・My crappy memory nowadays... I know I need to sleep properly but I haven't been able to do that yet *sigh*

Peachy・PockySweet's livestreaming the game "Only Up" while I make this post. He's been playing the game for a couple weeks already (he livestreams every Wednesday) and it's such a pleasure to watch ~~him fall~~ for an S like me :P... It's definitely a game that's more fun when you watch other people play it.

Time: 2023-06-28T22:29:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , 5 Flavours , Food , My Do-S Side , My Salty Side , Online Shopping , Youtube

It had an evil dragon...

OTD post!

On this day, I posted once in 2021...

Nothing much to say about today...

Lol I guess it's the same for this year XD

...I'm having so much fun reading "Charmed Life" again

Should I...? Probably shouldn't, since I'm in reading slump for physical books... (oh well)

Started playing ME3 multiplayer again. I should perhaps continue with my ME2 insanity playthrough but...

Not sure if I've mentioned it already before but I actually completed my weapon challenges few weeks ago. The last one was for SMG and it was so troublesome, never going to do that again! (I don't mind the other weapons though)

It feels bit weird seeing past-me mention that... My playing style has experienced changes since I started doing the challenges seriously. It's not a bad change but I'm kind of enjoying the game in another way...? Something like that.

And I've been playing more Silver matches lately. Just because it's hard to find Bronze ones... I hope I'll get used to Silver ones like Bronze's in the future~

No progress on ME2's insanity mode though... ooh maybe I can focus on that now that I've done most of the challenges...?

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Last night, I had some dreams that felt like stories of my lives in another universe... I don't really remember much about it but there were some details that aren't true here but it feels realistic (like it happened!) in the dreams... yeah, I had some weird dreams last night.

...I probably read too many isekai manga/web novels XD

Speaking of isekai manga.... finished one today that was so dark and twisted, it appeals to my dark side greatly. Honestly, I feel dirty (stained?) for liking it lol. The title is "Akuyaku Reijou, Godome no Jinsei o Jaryuu to Ikiru." All I'm going to say it's a revenge manga :P and what a satisfying revenge that was. I had fun. The revenge parts (parts!) are S-tier. Don't read it if you don't want to be stained.

Time: 2023-05-29T23:22:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , blog images , I Need to Talk About My Dreams , Interest: Games , Manga , My Dark Side , My Do-S Side , On This Day , Web Novels

Fel

Still a bit irritable so I'm trying to keep my mouth shut more to prevent disasters(?).

But... I just saw the last episode of "Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill" last night... GAAAH I love it so much. He's so gorgeous!

SO. CUTE.

I know people really love Sui (I love Sui too) but for me, it's Fel. Even if he's just a gluttonous Fenrir XD

[The screenshots are taken from the videos on Muse Asia channel but the anime is also available on Netflix.]

On other anime that just ended:

"By the Grace of the Gods" & "The Ice Guy and His Cool Female Colleague" ended peacefully. I might want to re-watch the whole thing again later :P

A cliffhanger(?) ending for "Sugar Apple Fairy Tale" since it ~~unfortunately~~ has a second cour. I still don't like the MC so I don't feel sorry seeing what she lost in the end. In fact, I was smiling (while I rolled my eyes) because I'm just being my mean self.

I do feel sad for Challe (Shall?) though, that other girl sounds like bad n-eww-s... (did it work? I tried putting eww in "news" because that's how I feel about that other girl)

Time: 2023-03-29T21:10:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2023 posts , Anime , blog images , I Need to be Distracted , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , Netflix , Utterly Distracted , Youtube

Cheat Day

Just finished watching the Walter Park arc... Loved it! Evil Iruma arc is still my absolute favourite but I'm really loving the characters growth in Walter Park arc. And I get to see more Callego-sensei ❤

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Couldn't sleep so ended up playing Shining Live (although I was on auto mode most of the time teehee) while reading "At Freddie's". Started picking up my speed while in the middle. The ending made me think something bad will happen to the last character mentioned. It wasn't shown but apparently... I thought correctly (read it on Wiki). That totally caught me off-guard.

I probably shouldn't start with "At Freddie's" for my first Penelope Fitzgerald book... fortunately, it's not unnecessarily long (*cough*like "Something Happened"*cough*) so I was able to enjoy it more near the end. I'm still interested in reading her other books.

Anyway... time to pick a new one!

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I got this: "I'd Die For You and Other Lost Stories"

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Coincidentally, I got another Fitzgerald book (but a different person lol) this week.

And I'm going to "cheat" this time. Going to start reading a day early!

Time: 2021-09-11T17:47:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Anime , Interest: Games , My Do-S Side , Pick-A-New-Book Jar , Reading

The Three Challenges

It's near the end of August and I've yet started any reading challenge I mentioned in a post earlier this month. Actually... it's not really limited to this month. It can be a year thing. Like before 2021 ends.

Oh right, I do have that jar to pick out unread books to read so that can be the reading challenge too. Currently I'm in the process of updating the contents.

I actually pulled out one book title out of the plastic jar a couple weeks ago. You know what I got? "Footsteps in the Dark". A book I was reading at that moment. Lol. Haven't pick out a new one yet.

Might as well make it a rule or game now. If I don't make a clear goal now, I'll procrastinate doing it later.

So, first challenge. Pick out a book from jar and finish in a week? Which will not be fun if I got a thick and [maybe] boring book (oh no). But I'll be very lenient to myself. I can leave the book unfinished. Maybe pick a new book if I do that... but the one week time will not change. Yeah, that will do. I can start this on Sunday (Aug 29th).

Second challenge. A mini reading list which will contain books I must finish reading by the end of the year. Oh no... this is getting ridiculous lol. Maybe not a must. At least five books from the list...? Yes, that sounds better. I'm going to use my "not-rigid" list from June (left out the ones I've already read).

Emma

Jane Eyre

The Lost World

Castle in the Air

House of Many Ways

The Remains of the Day

The Professor (since I couldn't find "Shirley")

Third challenge... wait. Should I really add more? I guess I'll make it optional. Pick any book in the bookshelf and read in one sitting within a day. Yes this sounds fun (sarcasm). Honestly though, this will help me finish the short books I have in my shelf. Or this challenge can easily be finish one book I'm currently reading (so like a "last spurt" kind of thing..).

Tempted to make two more (because five is a fine number haha) but can't think of any now. These three challenges are good enough for me (although one of it is optional so I don't know if that counts because I might not do that at all...).

Time: 2021-08-27T14:25:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , I Need to be Distracted , My Do-S Side , Pick-A-New-Book Jar , Reading , Reading Challenge

Dragon's Eye

Posted in: 2021 posts | Anime | blog images | Food | My Do-S Side

Currently trying to catch up with S2 of "Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun" and honestly, I really enjoyed what I've seen so far. Evil-Iruma arc was... perfect. Met another favourite weird teacher, Balam-sensei (who is voiced by Konishi-san!). Got to know more about my other favourite teacher, Callego-sensei (or Kalego..? the subtitle used Callego so I went with that). Loved every minute of it. I don't mind having more Callego but oh well ~~Haaah now want to watch from the beginning again~~

Also, loved that D0-S face Callego had on him after he told them about extra homework. Oh don't get me wrong, not being a Do-M here.. I'm just a fellow Do-S who's taking notes as reference XD ~~and I happen to like seeing Do-S characters in distress so you understand why I like Callego lol~~

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Oh yeah. Tried fresh longan for the first time. I've eaten dried ones before (in drinks) but never fresh ones. It's interesting. Doesn't smell as strong as dried longans. Somewhat reminds me of mata kucing, only bigger.

Time: 2021-08-17T16:42:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Anime , blog images , Food , My Do-S Side

Hurt

This will be a post full of random things again. Just like usual.

I'm embedding some tweets I found in my Twitter timeline today.

*continues to scroll*
— John Wolfe (@JohnWolfeYT) March 11, 2021

Haha I don't think I'm very active in my social media accounts lately but that scrolling thing is so on point. So many times have I find myself continue scrolling even though I don't feel like reading anymore.

Just a reminder that everyone is still going through things you may not know about.

Be kind when you follow up about problems or missed deadlines, replies, or meetings.
— Grammar Girl (@GrammarGirl) March 11, 2021

This reminds me of the post I did in the past (which was also mentioned again in an "On This Day" post).

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Received the metal book holder today. Seems sturdy enough.

I'm actually quite excited to start using it! Have to get used to the thing holding the pages at the bottom.

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What do you do when you feel hurt?

I don't know how this came up but I was thinking about it before I go to sleep. When I started posting here again, I mentioned about healing in at least two posts. The truth is, I was feeling hurt after I quit my job. I don't remember when but I was told how something happened that led to me getting transferred and I eventually quitting. I feel betrayed by people I thought I can trust.

I still feel the hurt now but it's not as intense as before. I still feel like I can never forgive them. I guess this is the thing. Few days ago, my mother was watching something on the TV which [I overheard &] prompted me to say "You can't force someone to forgive you!" This is why I say I hold grudges. Passively, I think. Because to me, it's just a matter of giving a status (label?) and then move on with life. They don't occupy my mind all the time.

I do believe in forgiving when you're ready. I might find that one moment where I feel serene and I finally write it in my diary to acknowledge it. I know because I experienced it before. There was a person I nicknamed Akuma in this blog before. For a period of time, I was so, so mad at him. I will always give him the stink eye during his classes at uni. One day, all of a sudden, I felt serene (I think this is the perfect word to describe it) and I forgive him.

This is why I get so triggered when I hear/read people asking to "just forgive them" because who the heck do you think you are? If they are not ready to forgive, let them be. Don't give advice like that just to make everyone but that person [doing the forgiving] to feel calm & in peace.

Have I mentioned that I hold grudges?

Time: 2021-03-12T16:01:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , blog images , My Dark Side , My Do-S Side , My Salty Side , Online Shopping Bag , Reading , Reminiscences , Tweets

More than fine, probably.

On this day...!

I have 3 posts on March 11th from the past.

2 posts from 2009. (Oof!)

1 post from 2012. (So not looking forward to reading that!)

I can already feel the cringe building up in my shoulders...

2009
"A very, very random post."

I like seeing Jun-pyo being afraid of bugs (cockroach!). I dread them too.

My Do-S side, so you started early too huh. I still hate cockroaches especially the flying ones. I dread the moment they land on my head and crawl on my hair. Urgghh I really don't like that feeling.

I haven't read my KPP book.

Ah now this is somewhat nostalgic. It's the book we have to study before taking the multiple-choice questions related to traffic laws and driving stuff (if I remember correctly). I actually have a label dedicated for learning to drive. Of course, since MCO happened last year, I don't drive much anymore. Maybe only once after MCO in 2020.

I did this online quiz a few days ago.

Oh boy. Here we go. The link to the quiz is dead so I don't know what it was about. But let's look at the results anyway. Is this going to be long...? I hope not.

And wow those tables haha... I used Windows Live Writer in the past so there are posts with weird formats like these (and some of them look broken lol.. I have to edit them every time).

Decided not to include the full results here.

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self.

Me now? I think it's easier to hide my true self. I don't have to explain why I'm like this. It's troublesome to explain and I'm not really interested in hearing how to "fix" me.

It sounds like I'm being that moody, angsty and brooding person but it's actually more like acting as nice as possible. Wait, the more I explain the more it sounds complicated.. oh well.

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

Erm... Is education the same with knowledge?

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed.

Still. True.

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people.
True and false at the same time. I don't think I tried very hard to be accepted.

The grey text is my notes for that result. I don't feel like looking at this anymore... Just the other day I found a blog post from 2005 about me wanting to get a teacher's attention. It's making me feel confused lol. I guess "true and false at the same time" will still be the appropriate answer.

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
I'm full of energy and I tend to be over-confident. Not good. I love the unpredictable part because that's what I have always been.

Honestly, I don't want to remember this phase of my life.

Okay. If you ask me now... Not full of energy. Confidence is unstable, usually on the floor or out of the window. Still predictably unpredictable. Ever-changing moods. Yes, yes.. I am "occasionally calm & still but never for long".

I love reading Jurassic Park!

Oh this reminds me, I have to reread the sequel again.

Someone subscribed to my images in photobucket and I don't know why.

I already closed down my photobucket account(s). There might still be broken PB links on this blog.

Phew. That feels so long.

"Silly Music"

I did a new one. It's long. So I put it elsewhere. But I can't resist putting down some of my favourite ones here.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
More Than Fine by Switchfoot

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bad Boys Do It Better by Voltage Inc. (Game theme song)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
One Step by Arashi

IS THERE SOMETHING WE SHOULD KNOW ABOUT YOU?
Built to Last by Mêlée

Love it when the song title suits the question!

I used [my] liked songs playlist on Spotify which has 300+ songs on it.

2012

"March 11th at random"

They couldn't find the books I want. It's kind of disappointing (esp after that "Meikyuu" incident)... but I found another online store I can order from (hopefully they could find them this time).

Oh wow.. I haven't seen that name for so long. I don't use that site anymore. Depending on what I look for, if it's Japanese stuff, I use CDJapan and Amazon JP. Also, haven't use Honto.jp much too (that's where you'll find cheaper shipping rate, the last time I use it).

Even though my vocabulary is still lacking, I might attempt to read the original novel because I'm too curious of the lead male & female characters' interaction~

Unfortunately, I haven't got the chance to attempt-read that Japanese novel.

Time: 2021-03-11T18:35:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , A Can of Worms! , About Blogging , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , On This Day , Online Shopping , Reading

Unexpectedly Long Post

I finally got that new Google chat thing. Read (belatedly) that Hangouts is changing into Chat just early this year. I'm excited although it's really nothing to be excited about lol.

Anyway, another "On This Day" post! I posted two blog posts from 2008 on this same day. And... I was talking about books and blogging so maybe I'll find something interesting.

First post... "Blabbers #1 : Post too long?"

Bwahaha! I was really into making blog post titles with such format back then. I realise now that those kind of format is only useful if you keep track or remember them. Probably better for series kind of posts that you already have an end number (like "Greece Trip #1 - Airport" / "Greece Trip #7 - Flying Back Home).

Random-ness #1... Blabbers #1? Haha... I've given them numbers so that I can keep track how many random-ness and blabbers have I posted. It's kind of organized to be labelled/categorized that way..

Oh past-me. Nope. You just made more work for me. I can't even keep track of my... our labelling system. This is weird.

As this blog is just, what, 2 months old?, I might as well make it all organized early. Hmmm. *Maybe that's where my perfectionism is.*

This got me at first, "What do you mean 2 months??" Then I realised past-me meant me using this new blog url. It used to be something else before. Then I brought the old posts (posted backdated) here.

This is the last post on that blog.
Yeah, I still keep it. But it's private now.

Decided to keep old blog url not public anymore. You'll be seeing Maru in posts that mentioned them. I'm giving a big SHHHHHH to everyone who knows it. Don't ever mention it in this blog.

And.. the perfectionist part... I know I'm still one at heart but I'm trying to tone it down. I think I said that thrice already in this blog haha. I just mentioned it in another "On This Day" post.

Oh yeah another thing. I used to (and recently do it again) write in blue colour. I don't remember if I explained it before...? Whatever you see in blue was... is... supposed to be my dark side. Apparently I've acknowledged its existence since before this post in 2019... I usually write bold, shocking things [that I usually won't say in real life] in that colour. Sometimes, it's just random stuff though.

And the rest of the post was just me talking about the formatting in my previous post.

Second post... "Book Frenzy"

I started reading books again a few months ago.

Are you me? Oh yeah, you are. LOOOOL

Jokes aside... see that? I have those moments. Those reading slumps. Oof.

I have many unread books in my bookshelf. Mostly are classic novels... I've become fond of classic ones since I read Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë in Form 5 and been buying classic novels whenever I have money..

I still have many unread ones that I'm interested in reading. To me, reading classic novels require you to be in a certain mood. I have left some unfinished/dropped early because I read it during a wrong mood/time.

*sigh* I've forgotten how much reading books can be exciting and addicting. Surprisingly, I found it more fun than watching serial dramas because it's all happening in my mind - I can pick or create any cast I like according to my preference. It's a very peculiar (in a good way) experience to me actually.

Ahhh that feeling huh... Can't really relate much to that at this moment because my way of reading is changing(?). I'm still experimenting and I'll be honest, I'm so afraid of not enjoying books I loved before anymore. There's also that thing where you used to enjoy YA books but not anymore after you became an adult.

Somewhat new thing I find as I read now is, I imagine the writer or character narrating the book to me...? I guess this only happen to ones which I know how their voice sound like. Like "Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason" and "The Gun Seller".

There are times I have to hold myself from continue reading because I want to keep it for tomorrow... but at the same time, dying to know what happened next.

Now, regarding this, I usually just continue reading haha.. Unless I'm sleepy. Sleep takes priority.

The rest of the post was me fangirling over Diana Wynne Jones books.

BONUS

Yeah... so the 2 months thing was bothering me so I went to look for my first post in 2008. Horrified to find old blog link there so I removed it.

So that's another date I didn't care to remember in this blog. February 5th 2005 is when I did my first post in the old blog. Then I moved to a new blog url in 2008 and the first post was made on January 6th.

Here I am left wondering why I didn't pick a more memorable date lol. Feb 5th is understandable but I could've pick a good, easier-to-remember date in 2008.

Anyway, there's also an explanation for the blue thing there.

Another new thing - Besides me blogging, I'll have the other-me blog too. Who's other-me you ask? I'm not crazy, but other-me is an attempt to expose the "evil" or "opposite" side of me. When I am thinking, I often look at the positive and negative sides of things that sometimes I end up imagining silly and stupid things in my head. It's like the small angel-devil appearing in cartoons that says,"Do it," & "No, don't do it."

The other-me can be seen in blue.

The so-called dark side is apparently other-me, the evil/opposite side of me.

I was aware of it that early!

By the way, I also do that devil's advocate thing sometimes. I didn't know the term before but I do that thing. My mother got mad at me when I argue with her about something... that I don't even believe in. "Whose side are you on really?" I probably just do that for fun, other than looking at the positive and negative sides of things.

Read before that this is something INTP always do. #INTPhere

Time: 2021-03-05T19:42:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , About Blogging , blog anniversary , My Dark Side , My Do-S Side , On This Day , Reading

End of Tragic Drama

I finished watching "Ashes of Love".

The only thing I had in mind until the very end: Stupid.

I really can't stand stupidness. I can accept acting stupid once in a while but staying stupid is stupid.

Argghh.. Okay, I'll stop saying that. But this drama is full of annoying and stupi- not-so-intelligent characters, I... I don't really want to see it again. The angst is not worth it. Unless you're into that kind of thing.

For someone who watched the drama for Deng Lun, the drama is a blessing and a curse. The soundtrack is great. We even get to hear Deng Lun sings. But the stu- characters, oh god, I can't stand some of them!

Anyway, I've finished it. Time to look for other stuff with Deng Lun in it.

Oh yeah.. I got more Xu Feng in ponytail by the end huehuehue.. ~~& he cried so beautifully I love it~~

Time: 2021-02-19T14:34:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Dorama , Interest: TV , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , My Salty Side , Netflix

Yes, I'm a ドS

I'm back with more... anime. HAHAHA. Saw many nice ones [judging from the 1st episode] for this season. "Yuru Camp" S2. And since I watched & enjoyed the first season, I'm also watching the second season of "That Time I Got Reincarnated as a Slime". New ones include another isekai-themed anime, "So I'm a Spider, So What?", and... "Heaven's Design Team" which made me laugh a lot. It's more like a biological...informative anime? I'm so happy (& proud) that I recognised Suwabe-san's voice there pretty fast lol

Should have ended this post here... but I decided to dig through my tumblr again for some random post. Only that... it picked this post.

THIS.

https://ruyandaplus.tumblr.com/post/167586446463/recent-google-history

Ha..ha..ha..

BWAHAHAHAHA

( ﾟ∀ﾟ)ｱﾊﾊ八八ﾉヽﾉヽﾉヽﾉ＼ / ＼/ ＼

I can just pick another random post but decided to embed it here anyway.. because it's fun ~~to bully myself sometimes /excuse me while I act like a Do-S to myself hue hue hue~~.

Hmmm.. yeah.. it's not a big deal, you know. It's just that thing about.. being attracted to someone. And I guess... - if you want to call it that - it is some kind of a minor crush. Really, really minor. Thank god for that. I told myself not to mistake it for something like *pfft*.. love.. or like.. or anything strong that's similar. HE'S JUST SO FUN TO TEASE, I'M TELLING YOU! Anyway. Don't even bother with that "Is it Love" tag.. just wanted to tag with something easy to remember so that I can go find those posts again later.

I knew he was already engaged to someone even though no one mentioned it. Those rings, man, they meant something. So, it's a relief that I never fell in love with him. Attracted, yes. Love-like-daisuki, nuh-uh, it's definitely not that. The moon was not beautiful that night.

I think it's a good experience though.
ぅん((-∀-｡ )ぅん

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Dunno what to say anymore.

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Here. I offer you another random post about me fangirling over "Skip Beat!" [again].

https://ruyandaplus.tumblr.com/post/159749388888/listens-to-skip-beat-cast-comment-track

~~Okay, bye. Thanks for reading~~

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Time: 2021-01-16T21:14:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2021 posts , Anime , Life: Anecdotes , My Do-S Side , My Fangirl Side , Tumblr of the Day

The Real Final Post of 2012

Posted in: 2012 posts | Delayed Rebellious Phase (Cringeworthy) | My Do-S Side | University: Anecdotes | University: Year 4

The previous week was the final week for this semester.

I was reluctant to attend the last class I had for that week. Was hoping that the lecturer will go with what she said a week before...

*sigh* I went anyway... But it wasn't a normal lecture. She just informed us about our informal final exam (which was yesterday)... & shared some wisdom regarding the recent viva presentation. まあ。My DoS side made a brief appearance. She commented that the current batch was far more worse than the previous one (my batch). I didn't see the whole thing so I can't really form a general opinion... but if she say so, I'll take her word for it.

いや。 Really. I'm glad that I went to see the viva presentation. I think... seeing the lecturers I had problem with before act professionally during viva had changed the way I see them. Just a bit I think... (I still can't accept their attitude). I was thinking, "They can act unbiased too huh." ~~I hope that didn't sound worse than the way I meant it XD~~... I guess..it's understandable for them to have those prejudices (btw I really wish that they try not to think too much about them...)... when the quality of the students is just that.

Back to class... she even gave some reviews which I think is useful for those who didn't do well for their Project I/viva. I wonder if the others were listening though... the lecturer is well known for her spicy comments during viva (thanks to stories told by students from the same batch with me)... so it could be possible that those juniors will just ignore what she said... Actually, I suspect that the horror stories were exaggerated. The two so-called infamous lecturers that will shoot you with deadly questions during viva DO know what they're asking. Of course, they'll be skeptical at times but isn't that the purpose of doing the viva? A chance to defend your research?

Sometimes, I'm afraid that those viva stories will create misunderstandings... What if.. what if the comments given by the lecturers might had been helpful for them but because they "know" it's all just critics, they just disregard the comments?

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Addendum
16/Jan/2020
After 7 years staying as a draft post, this post is finally published today (backdated). As I mentioned last month, I probably planned to add something in the end of the post but forgot to do so... The content isn't relevant to current day me anymore...("My 'black years' phase never ended") but since it's part of my life experience, I decided to publish it anyway. To my old self: F.

Time: 2012-12-29T01:44:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2012 posts , Delayed Rebellious Phase (Cringeworthy) , My Do-S Side , University: Anecdotes , University: Year 4

My Heart Smiled Quietly

Attended the viva presentation (for my program) yesterday... & also the day before. But I missed the morning sessions because I woke up late XD

I attended once before. It was during my batch's viva... Didn't go to the 2nd (Project II) one but I've heard horror stories about it. If I really have no idea on how to write a research paper, I would be very, very, very scared by now. *sigh*

The second day was scarier. The problems were still the same (it really doesn't matter if the head program doesn't know much math) as before, lack of researcher's skills... erm... things like that. To be honest, I find that the comments given by the lecturers (including those I have issues with lol) were potentially very helpful - should be helpful for them in their research but alas... some of them didn't even understand what they did wrong (they were clueless when asked if they understand what the lecturers just told them). Of course, the way they express their comments wasn't always very nice... so it might be hard to listen to them... but their suggestions were helpful, especially for a screwed up thesis paper.

I know that I will face the same thing next semester, but... あの日、ドSになっちゃった。I'm not even sorry for making that my initial reason of attending (I learnt a lot though in the end so I was glad I went... *hopefully I'll remember them*)... but seeing overconfident 後輩たち crumbled (esp those who I find rude before) was such a pleasure (言っちゃった!). Yes, I'm saying this so carelessly without any guarantee that the same thing will happen to me. Maa... if I screwed up, it would be a nice story to blog about anyway...

Oh yeah. One thing that really caught my attention was the strictness of which language is allowed for them to use for their thesis. At the beginning of the semester, I saw some of the permission (to write their thesis paper in english) form sent (by juniors) at the general office & wondered if they are up to it. During the viva presentation, some students were asked about their MUET band (I was surprised because I thought they got higher *overthinking*) & the head program passed his judgement like "You do in Malay!" (even though that person did it in English) in the end.. I actually thought あくま looked so cool doing that!!!

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楽しかったです～

Time: 2012-12-20T00:45:00+08:00
Posted by RuYanda
Labels: 2012 posts , Delayed Rebellious Phase (Cringeworthy) , In Arrogant Mode , My Do-S Side , University: Anecdotes , University: Final Year Project , University: Year 4

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