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Originally posted on Saturday, April 23, 2005 in my old blog
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Just created this one.... forgot to make it more 'tidy'....hehe

Removed PB dead link (It was a gif of a scene from QDAQH Eps 39)
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Yer... I think I need a a tuition teacher for History.... yeah, yeah I know the subject is so easy, why do I need tuition.... I'm a totally weird person.. I can cope easily with things other people find hard/difficult to do BUT I'm a no-no for EASY THINGS... So, hmm... I will consider the idea...

Since yesterday's exam, I can't figure out what is in my mind... I wrote my essays without being fully-focused on what I'm doing... That is dangerous actually...

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Originally posted on Saturday, March 19, 2005 in my old blog
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Found this article. Not really sure from which thread and who the author is (but at the end written the name 'Can Yue' 殘月--maybe it's her/him). It is a very touching article. I had translated it into english. Please be aware that I am not a pro translator. Every translation is not a direct translation and was done with the help of online dictionary and my little knowledge of chinese language. [* indicates sentences I don't know how to translate]

Youpeng, I don't like you
I don’t like you to come to your website and leave messages early in the morning.
Your health is not that good yet you still go to sleep this late.
You made our heart aches.
We don’t want you to leave messages.
We just want a very healthy Youpeng.

I don’t like you disallowing us from visiting you at your working site.
Don’t like you disallowing us from giving you presents…
yes, I admit…it is because we want you to be as honourable/reputable as other artistes..*
But you want us to donate all those presents…to help the needy people…
I don’t like you thinking for others and let yourself suffer…

I don’t like you to work till morning…
I don’t like to see you on the news with blurry, sleepy eyes and at the same time greets everyone…telling everyone your latest work will soon be meeting us (soon be out).
I’m not worried…
I’m really not worried…
You are in our hearts…
We don’t care your other things, we just want you to be happy…

I don’t like your affectionate performance in your serials.
I don’t like you suffering to perform your innermost feelings (through his characters, I think).
Although it is only a play, you used your real feelings (when acting)…
Seeing/Watching that made our pain ache a lot, really painful…
We don’t want to see your sorrowful face (or expressions?)

During signing session, I don’t like you to sign till your hand is tired…
You can sign more less ah…
I know, the smile on your face came from your heart (meaning-- a sincere smile)..but your hand shakes when you are signing for your fans…
Did you know?
I really feel I want to come forward and scold you *
I want to tell you to go and get your rest.
But I didn’t do it.
I know, that time is the real you..

I don’t like you to hide the real you.
There’s a lot of news (& gossips) about you.
Why didn’t you come forward to clarify…
You made us really angry, did you know that?
Is it fun making everybody misunderstand you?
I know what is in your heart.
You don’t want to make any statements. * But we felt outraged (for those false news/gossips) for you...

I don’t like you forever putting your fans at the first place.
I don’t like you worrying about your fans all the time.
Please think for your fans.
You are our jing shen zhi zhu 精神支柱 (spiritual mainstay, I guess it meant motivation or encouragement to live).
If you have health problems, what can we do…please, I beg you, forever put ‘good health’ at the first place (replace ‘fans’)…please, for us…

殘月/ 筆
Original version

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Originally posted on Saturday, March 12, 2005 in my old blog
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I'm taking a break---

I stumbled upon this forum [Xia ri li de chun tian / spring in summer?]

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Originally posted on Saturday, March 12, 2005 in my old blog
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Just a brief update:


Today had 3 papers-- BM (Malay Language), BI (English Language) & SEJ (History)

BM was okay (although I screwed up a bit with my rumusan)
BI was fine
I sure will fail for my SEJ---Not fully-prepared, didn't study, no readings meaning NO A~

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Step is back...But she's sick...hope she gets well soon!!

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Originally posted on Saturday, February 12, 2005 in my old blog
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Originally posted on Saturday, February 05, 2005 in my old blog
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This is my first post...
why I decided to create my own blog site---to throw in all my thoughts which nobody wants to hear.

In the future, I'll be posting a lot about what I think and feel (either in English or Malay, etc)...yeah..maybe I'll also talk about Alec Su...he's my favourite chinese actor/singer since year 2000...& now I'm stuck with his Yang Si Lang....