Blabbers #6
This was written yesterday during my church service.

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As I'm writing this post on the paper.... My younger sister and I just had an unintended" laugh. Well... There's this elderly lady (I called her Olympic because her earrings look like the olympic logo. And FYI, I don't know her.)... sitting two church-row-seats in front of us. Okay. At a moment, (we weren't expecting this kind of thing to happen in a church)... as everything went into an anti-climax (nothing interesting could happen) phase... A smell suddenly filled the air. We described it: Rotten Tauhu + Rotten Vegetables + Rotten Egg = Sudden Smell.

"Oh, good." I thought,"Someone farted."

Well, we suspected the elderly lady because the people around us were more concious of their surroundings. I'm not saying that every elderly people tend to do it because they don't care... It came with experience. Our's, I mean. We had a similar incident before, and it was an elderly teenager (boy)! Or is it early adult? Anyway. We know that a strong smell like this must had come from someone sitting in front of us.

Lol. And here I am talking about this pointless thing.

Anyway. Our conversation (originally in malay) went like this.

*smell*
Sister: *nudges me*
Me: *nudges back*
Both: *speechless*
S: What is this? (Her tone was higher than usual) *looks around*
M: *giggles*
S: What oh?.... (Still going "What")
M: *whispers* You know what it is! You should have ask "Who?"!
*writes on paper* Smells like rotten vegetable...
S: *giggles, writes back* Wtf!
M: *writes* What.the.fart?
*more giggling*

Yeah, I know, we were being nasty (moreover, in a church!).. But we tend to notice small things like this when there's nothing to do. Amazingly, my mum who sat beside me didn't smell anything. I bet everyone except both of us didn't smell anything. Weird. I told my sister that she already inhaled all the smell. More giggling. The smell almost made her puke.

Enough of that stupid story. I do feel bad laughing about this because we were not even sure it was her... (ermm... We did saw her went to the restroom after that "incident")... Nonetheless, Olympic had become a part of our amusement today.

Don't you ever wonder how little petty things like this could make your day?
As long as they don't know you're laughing at them. Well~ I don't like being laughed at too.
It's life.

A good start for the day.
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Sunday was better than last Saturday.
I was angry all day. Being hormo-tional.

But what I'm angry with, I can't get it out because it's inappropiate, irrational and doesn't deserve to be thrown fit at.

What will you do when you're in such position?

Wait for your steam to cool down? That will take me days. Not healthy.
Go crash/vandalize some stuff in the house? I don't want to do anything that I'll regret later.
Make everyone around you miserable? Done. But it wasn't enough.
Watch TV? Nothing special on TV.
Internet? Good idea. But I have to wait for my turn. Which is... NEXT WEEK! *sarcastic sigh*
Someone's been busy killing monsters in a computer game someone just installed.
Become a monster? Hmmm...
Sing "I feel pretty... oh so pretty..."? Am I in the mood to sing that?

Lastly, what I did was something I don't usually do in public.

We went to the Kolombong Giant Hypermarket that evening, shopping for the kitchen stuff.
I went cranky about everything in there. Throwing words everywhere.

"Does that thing even have a sirim logo?" Surprisingly, I noticed some electrical appliances sold in Giant don't have it.
"This cabbages look old."
"Oh. This chicken is not fresh. Look at that. Gross."
"Fraudalent." I don't remember to what or whom I was referring to.
"What can you expect? They are lazybones."

Yeah, okay, so it wasn't harsh enough...
And I don't know if anyone or the staff of Giant heard what I said.
But it sure felt good saying things without thinking if it hurts anyone's feeling...


I'll remember to do it next time I got hormo-tional, erm.. I mean emotional.

Today seems like a rough day for me. Everything I do weren't going on smoothly. Things falling as I clumsily went past them.

When I watched the re-run of last night's episode of "Ghost Whisperer" [The final episode of Season 2]... During a particular scene, I cried (Most of Ghost Whisperer's episodes will scare me in the first half and then make me cry in the second half, weird..I know. But this scene is in the first half.) uncontrollably for 5 seconds. It wasn't really a tearjerking scene that's why I'm kind of surprised.

As my sister arrived at 2.30pm, I realised my bad day hasn't completed.

"Did you know...*my sister looked at me gravely*... Mr. Molius died this morning?"
My mind started recollecting my memories of him.

Geography teacher. Physical Education teacher.
Funny. Bubbly. Strict.
A distant uncle of mine.
School's Sport Day won't be complete without him being the one who announce the winner.

According to my sister, he died because of dengue. Miss Annie (one of my favourite teacher in Form 2) cried. They must had been best friends.

Oh... What a depressing news.

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Edit: Sept 11, 2008
I got this from the SMK Lok Yuk friendster group's board.

My brother reaction was like... "He just punished me oh.. [few days ago]."
I guess that's his way of saying everything seem normal and *pop* tomorrow you got the news of his death.
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I came to realise that as you get older, you'll encounter more people... and deaths.




May his soul rest in peace.

Self-talk #3

"What is it?"
"Huh" My brother answered.
"What did the doctor say?"
"It's *mumbles something*."
"What?"
"Campak." [Measles]

What the heck?
When he said campak, my reaction was neutral. Initially, seeing the rashes all over his body, I thought he was allergic to something. And la~ la~ la~, he actually got measles! Can you still get that nowadays???... He was already vaccinated when he was a baby. Nah. Wait. I'm not even sure about that. I only know I did get vaccinated and ... that included my younger sister. I didn't see his records anywhere.

Then he asked me if it's contagious... "Of course!" thoughts immediately came to mind. Though, at that moment I'm not really sure because I once mistaken measles for chicken pox. My dad told him it wasn't contagious. Well. He said the same thing when chicken pox invaded our house (All thanks to his shingles). I repeatedly said "I'm going to get chicken pox because it's contagious!" at that time, and my dad, my religious/pious dad.. said to believe in God, and have faith in him ----- Try telling that to those who's suffering. (I forgot from which TV show was that)

It's not that I don't believe in God. I do.
But you won't let your car or house unlocked when you are not inside, right?

I know all along (it's obvious!) that my youngest brother is the apple of my parent's eye. I used to keep telling them that but they would always deny it. Now, I just shrugged whenever I see it happen because I've come to accept that. I'm not self-pitying. I'm just saying that these are the things I see and feel about my parents. I think too much? I shouldn't have think of this in the first place if there's nothing to trigger this thought!

Back to the topic. I'm kind of disappointed that my dad told him measles isn't contagious. A few hours ago he went angry when I spoke about measles. He treated the topic as a taboo in the house and warned us not to talk bad (what the heck?) about other people. I was just about to say that it's contagious, [in fact, it's highly infectious as I checked in a medical dictionary].. and my dad said to mind your own business. Or something like that. Let me rephrase it in malay... "Jangan peduli orang lain [punya hal]..." (Ignore other people's [matter])...

Yeah, right. Still sound the same to me.


AHRGGHGH!

AHRGGHGH!



After written it all down here, I'm feeling much better.

I've been alive for 2 decades now.

Thanks to everyone that wished me "Happy Birthday" today!

What do I graduated from as I reached this age?

*yells* Sappari wakaranai!

[ from Galileo]

Hmm... Anyway. This is what I'm going to blog today.

Chronology of my blog. Only important events.

Yeah, I might not include everything in my blog (like when I failed my exam or an encounter with someone I hate...) ... especially bad experiences or embarassing moments... ( I plan to write about that in the future) these few years but it's still a part of my life. When I look back at my older posts, I realised just how childish and shameless I was back then.

〇〇〇-blogspot-com (my old blog) was started solely to channel my lonely, unmotivated, aimless, & stressed (OK, enough!) life in form 5. Even now, I cringe whenever the memories return to mind... There were so many things I wouldn't dare to re-play in my mind. I'm always surprised how people can survive form 5 /SPM year gracefully. I'm convinced that no one ever felt more pathetic as I was. I think I had some kind of depression thingy going on that year (I even got insomnia for the whole year.. Only can sleep at 3 am and got up around 5 am to prepare for school) and maybe during form 4 too) but I never got it diagnosed.

Hey. Wait a minute. This post is supposed to be a happy post.

Words in:

bold - from this blog

unbold - from old blog

┏━━━【２００５】　　　　

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┣━「Feb 5」 My very first blog post.

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┣━「Aug 7」 Fell sick. Suspected Chicken Pox.

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┣━「Aug 8」 Confirmed Chicken Pox.

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┣━「Aug 22」 Back to school after chicken pox invasion.

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┣━「Aug 31」 Bad academic results. One of my SPM laments posts. I think the meeting was on 30th.

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┣━「Sept 1」 17th birthday. No blog post.

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┣━「Dec 11」 My maternal grandpa died.

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┣━━━【２００６】　　　　

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┣━「Mar 13」 SPM results came out. Made decision to enter form 6.

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┣━「Apr 18」 Received different reactions regarding decision to enter form 6.

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┣━「Jun 2」 After I was rejected by school of choice for form 6.

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┣━「Jun 13」 1st *official* school day - form 6.

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┣━「Jun 19」 Got to know some of our form 6 teachers.

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┣━「Jun 23」 Knew more teachers. One teacher told us to be proud of being a sixth-former.

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┣━「Jun 25」 My 1st week of form 6.

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┣━「Jul 28」 My 1st ever "Pengajian Am" presentation that was appreciated by a teacher.

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┣━「Aug 10」 Chemistry teacher would not be available for this year. Whether the original one refused to teach or chickened out.. I'll never know.

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┣━「Sept 1」 18th birthday.

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┣━「Sept 25」 My mum held her viva for her doctorate thesis.

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┣━「Oct 22」 More school stories... f6 experiences...

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┣━「Nov 2」 Biology (f6) stories. More laments on teachers in Malaysia.

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┣━━━【２００７】　　　　

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┣━「Jan 19」 1st post in 2007. Back to school stories.

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┣━「Jan 28」 More school stories.

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┣━「Feb 7」 More and more school stories.

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┣━「Mar 2」 Interesting BIO practical done yesterday.

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┣━「Mar 27」 Monthly test results blabbers.

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┣━「May 25」 Speech-less at a MUET mock group discussion. Some issues with a teacher.

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┣━「Sept 1」 19th birthday. No blog post.

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┣━━━【２００８】　　　　

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┣━「Jan 6」 Moved to this new blog : Fighting for Life. 1st post in new blog.

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┣━「Apr 4」 原來我們活在兩個世界 ("Tears from Polaris" song)

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┣━「Jul 24」 Started moving *selected* posts from my old blog to here.

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┣━「Jul 30」 A post dedicated to Mel-chan.

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┣━「Aug 20」 Visit to grannies.

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┗━「Sept 1」 20th birthday. This post.