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Originally posted on Tuesday, March 27, 2007 in my old blog
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Our monthly test was held last week. Ah. I was already ready to fail for CHEM. haha *laughs bitterly*. Again, I focused on BIO this time. There were only 10 objective, 3 structure & 1 essay questions. Yay! Another record! (lol). All Qs are worth of 50m, I got 27 out of 50. So..ummph.. should be 27x2=54% (yeah I know.. it's not something to be proud about but I rarely pass my BIO papers in f4/f5. It meant much to me)

CHEM paper was actually easy... if I did my revision, I could have gotten better marks. Surprisingly, I don't feel sad about it because I didn't work hard for CHEM. Regrets, yes. But no sadness. I think only those who had done extensive revision, a lot of memorising, etc yet still fail would feel sad because they didn't get what they want.

Maths---> The teacher was absent for this whole week, I guess we'll get our paper next week.. I have a bit confidence for this one.. Answered all Qs except one (not enough time..)

Speaking of Maths.. We'll be having another male teacher for Maths T Paper 2. ah.. the teacher entered our class before & I don't really have a good impression of him. hmmm...

We only had reading & writing Qs for MUET paper-- & embarassingly I got the highest mark in the class (at 77%.. also not sth to be proud of)


PA---> cukup-cukup makanlah. I passed for both papers.



hehe.. sth to look forward: LOWER SIX!
Being the first batch of form 6 in SM〇〇 starting last year, we'll have the privilege to become the first seniors to the lower six this year! huahahaha

I can't wait for the orientation day!! (oh yeah~.. it's managed by the f6 association).. wanna make them call me senpai... ruth-senpai..

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Originally posted on Friday, March 02, 2007 in my old blog
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Ah...finally have time to blog.

I think most school have done this. Yesterday, it's "Rat Dissection" (Circulatory) for BIO practical... For 14 of us-- we had 11 white mice dissected. yeah, we didn't use rats. We obtained the mice from the Jabatan Haiwan (I think that's what teacher said).. it's free (& SMALL!).. so I don't think complaining will be right cos we got it without much efforts.. (Actually.. I have one rat at home, caught from outside. When I hear mice would be supplied, it's already too late. & now I don't know what to do with the rat [my rat is bigger than those white mice..].. )

I've done frog dissection before, so I know (from experience) that my hands will shiver when cutting open the skin.. But I'm glad it happened only in the beginning. After that it just came out naturally (not the skin).. I was able to do it calmly & meticulously.. I imagined that I was a surgeon operating on my patient. I pinned its skin neatly (even got praised by teacher because I've done a good dissection... hahaha).. Compared to the frog, the mouse's skin was (in my opinion) more easy to cut & separate it from the inside..


Today I presented about Ammonia during CHEM classes.. wah...yokatta desu.. finally I DID IT! I've made it perfectly again this time!

My CHEM teacher made it clear today on why she wants each of us to make presentation on what we are learning. I totally agree with her: It's to prepare us for university life, cos there'll be plenty of "presentations" there.

For Maths... I found the topic differentiation interesting. It's really fun to do all those calculations. I feared this topic before in f4 & f5. What a waste. I belittled my own skills & talents just because I was afraid. That's what you get when you always think negatively. Hmmm.. Just believe in yourself ma, dui bu dui?


A month ago, I wondered what other students (f6 science & art streams in my school) think of me. Not that I care about what people say of me but I was just curious. From my own assumptions, I think they see me as a conceited, somewhat anti-social person. It bothered me a bit. Talking warmingly & making friends with new people are not easy for me. Only those who care to go pass the wall I built will see the better side of me.

But then, I was struck by a thought: So what? I can't satisfy everyone's taste. If they can't accept me (ie. we have opposite beliefs/characteristics/principles) then let it be. Maybe we are not meant to be friends anyway (I might not like her/him too).

I think what's important is to just express myself honestly without pretending as someone I'm not. I'm willing to help anyone who needs my help as long as I am able to do it.