Kudos: Emoticons(Kaoni) from here. Also from here and here. Emoticons removed

I finished reading "Pride and Prejudice" a few weeks ago. When I was going to return it to the library, I hesitated at the very last minute. Eventually, I re-borrow and now I'm re-reading it. I read an abridged version before (couldn't find the original/unabridged version in my school library) but didn't think much about it. After reading the real thing, I fell in love with that book! I was doubtful about reading Jane Austen books (everyone has different tastes) after I started on "Sense and Sensibility" and stopped reading half-way. Maybe it's because I'm not familiar to Jane Austen's style of writing... Anyways, I'm going to give it a try again soon.

I also re-read "Jane Eyre". The feelings I get are different from my form 5 days. I was able to see it from a different angle. This time, it's the religion issue that appeals the most to me. Before (form 5), I was kind of dissapointed that Jane left Mr. Rochester after it was discovered that he was going to marry her while his [crazy] wife still alive. My limited understanding in english language (especially the old english used in Jane Eyre) must had prevented my mind from imagining some scenes in the book. Now, having re-reading it, I think Jane made the right decision. I must had been distracted by Mr. Rochester's charms.. but he can't make me think otherwise this time. He is in the wrong and he almost made Jane sin too. Jane Eyre is a really remarkable character that I can't help admiring her more.

It's so hard to find MONK novels in Sabah. So far, I only have two in my collection. I just finished "Mr.Monk in Outer Space" and I want to say how adorably annoying Adrian Monk is in the the first half of the book. I pity his agoraphobic brother very much. He "improves" later in the second half though.

A few days ago, I had a music theory trial exam. "What is that?", you asked? I guess my music school is kind of "obssessed" by perfect marks. So they made me come and sit for 2 hours doing similar & past-years questions of music theory (grade one). Hmmm. As this is my first time, I thought I came at the wrong day. Haha. But, actually I came in too early. There's only 6 or 7 others exam-takers. I was very nervous before because I thought that place would be filled with people... kids.. Imagine me the only adult student.. taking grade one exam.. Why did I let myself into this awkward situation? Anyway. I'm thinking of a disguise because my exam is going to be held at UMS. I don't want to stumble on anyone I know (except Mel-chan, of course) there! Hmmm.

Hana Kimi's SP drama was SO funny! I can't stop laughing seeing Nakatsu at the beginning. Sano seem to have more monologue scenes (did he have any in the drama? I don't remember...).. This SP also seems to answer this questions: How and when Sano fell in love with Mizuki? What were Kagurazaka feelings after the kiss with Sano? (That's funny and so unlike Kagurazaka)..etc. There were also more "elaborated" stories for the side characters... Mizuki's best friend's, Julie, sudden appearance was kind of a repetition and combination of Mizuki's family coming to visit her. Hibari Four downgraded to Hibari Three... and then back to Four in the end... Also there's more erm.. gay-ish thing going on in the SP. Nakao kissing Nanba-senpai. Kagurazaka making lunch for Sano... hmmm. I thought Yuujiro was supposed to be a female dog (that's why it doesn't like men)? Here, he was "married" to Nakatsu's family dog and even had (I assume) several Yuujiro Jrs... I like seeing Sano and Nakatsu being so friendly to each other. Maybe I'll talk about this later after I re-watch it. I really miss Sano's old hairstyle.

My latest shopping bag from Yesasia included NEWS "Happy Birthday" singles, a KUROSAGI manga and a postcard book of "I left my heart in Aegean Sea"... Wait.. postcard book? *smiles sheepishly* I thought I was going to get the book version. I never knew there was a postcard book version. Nevertheless, I'm going to cherish it just as much as I'll cherish the book if I ever own the book. --// By the way, the author has a new site... //-- The "Happy Birthday" singles smelt like bubble gum... you must take this statement positively because it's in a neutral tone. And what the heck am I doing with a KUROSAGI manga? I don't read and talk japanese! The weird thing is... I didn't read chinese 5 years ago either. How did it happen? A couple years ago, I read 還珠格格 3 - 天上人間 and cried buckets. Weird, isn't it? I was hoping that the same thing will happen to my KUROSAGI manga(s).. chotto.. manga...s?

Oh, Yes. I already owned eight of them. Eight of manga(s) in which I can't read a thing. Crazy indeed. What had induced me to do such a thing? My brain blames my compulsive feelings. My heart blames my over-confidence of learning a new language. At one point in the past, realising how much I adore KUROSAGI's live-action and wanting to see more Kurosaki X Tsurara moments, I must have the original ones and read it in Japanese.



~Ah. Glad to get all that out.~


Another thing that made me smile.

So far I only found a malay link.
I just hope the malaysian smokers won't be this smart. "Menegakkan benang yang basah!"

People who smoke are walking murderers.

My on-my-right smoking neighbour had finally moved out. What's left is the on-my-left neighbour. Such good days... Spraying my dettol disinfectant or the mosquito repellant (the point is to let them hear the spraying...) and hoping hopelessly that they die stop smoking...

I need to find a new way to torture annoy my smoking neighbours.

Yet another one written yesterday.

It's the evil-me.
I'll let my nasty side loose just for this post.

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Rock concert in a church? *meant to be sarcastic*
Yes. My church has it every Sunday.

I usually ignore my complaints of the VERY LOUD church music.
"Puj1an_dan_P3ny3mbahan" as they call it (or whatever the latest term is)...

But today's is the loudest of the loudest they ever held.
That's why it ended up here. My complaint, I mean.

Why can't I accept this loud church music like everyone else in the church?
I always play NEWS songs or whatever song I have in the laptop loud in my room.
Why is this church's rock concert SO unbearable??

And the tambourine dancers?
<<insert any curse words>>
So FAKE.
They look so oh~ innocent, so goodie-goodie... so religiously perfect.
But I believe they are not what they are seem.

Yes, okay. I heard you.
Maybe I'm just being jealous.
I admit that.

I'm jealous that they can perform so bravely in front of everyone.
I'm jealous of their self-confidence.
But that's all.

I can't control my irritation, looking at the way they are dancing.
I'm totally irritated by them.

They are passionate of the music...
...I can understand.

They being so overly passionate (somewhat reminded me of... erm... dare I say it?... Hint: The dance Cuddy did in the 2-part finale for House S4), I want to puke.

Well. I don't know them personally.
So I really don't have the right to judge them.

But, what the heck.
I'm still so irritated right now, (& they don't know about it)...
I only have this blog to channel this irritation.

How bad is this rock concert anyway, you ask?
Imagine this.

The church isn't so big. Maybe almost 2/3 of a football field.
The church seats, all occupied by church-goers.
Loud music. Very Loud music.
Heartbeat slightly accelerates.
...and you are not even singing, dancing, running, walking...
You are just standing.
And yet your heart beats so fast as if you just seen a ghost or chased by a really nasty dog.

The loud music.
Not only your ears listen to it.
Your heart too.
It's like someone is tap-dancing in your heart.
You can feel the drum's beats in your heart.

As I'm writing this (yes, I'm drafting this on paper in church again) I still feel the after-effects.
My palm went cold & sweaty.
My body still deciding to fight or flee.
...Also feeling slightly confused.
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Oh, good.

Instead of vomiting or flee, my body decided to cry.

Since last year, I've become sensitive to LOUD noise. My brother and I had a fight before and he yelled at me. It was so frightening, I ended up crying hysterically in my room.

And now.
The loud rock concert in my church made me cry.
Just because it's SO, SO, SO LOUD!

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